hypothesis question involving crystal

[hitthescene]

hi there, I never post here but this is driving me crazy so I need to ask; I don't usually use this methamphetamine but for the past 2 weeks I have had a supply. Usually I will use this substance intravenous but after experiencing terrible psychosis after being awake for 5 days, screaming and crying tearing my room apart in a very bizarre delusion I just switched to smoking. Now I realize I have run my body down but in the past 2 nights I slept each night & have been taking my vitamins. After much reading online I understand that joint pain is a side effect but from what I have read it seems that it is most often experienced when the user is coming off the drug. I am interested to know if this is a result of how much I used to abuse d-amp/ other stimulants & I seem to not handle the ill effects of this class of drugs as I used to OR if it is because since I started this 2 week use with IV use and now switched to smoking that I simply cannot get enough of the substance in my body that I still feel effects of coming off of it? I have been eating properly, but I can only drink beer because my stomach always feels nauseous on stimulants/ I am just too anxious otherwise.

I am aware calcium/magnesium has an effect on this as well. I could not get any opiates tonight which are my drug of choice besides some poppy seed tea which I will drink before I rest. I guess my question is if I am to do an intravenous dose of crystal right now will the joint aches subside? I only am thinking about this because if I smoke tons I don't notice the pain as much.

And yes, I realize I should just not use it or whatever, would just like to know if this is why the pain is happening while I am using & if the intravenous dose will make a significant difference in the pain compared to if I just smoke a lot. I've experienced terrible neck pain from using d-amp for awhile which I got lousy cyclobenzaprine (sp?) for back in the summer, however that never happened again in my later uses of it.

I know this is kind of a strange post/the way I wrote it but it has been a very long time since I posted anything in a forum online, been too wrapped up in addiction. I've been to 6 treatment centers in nearly 2 years & keep finding new drugs to abuse as heroin become way too expensive & I've long since destroyed my net care record (our network the pharmacies/doctors use to track your Rx's) an cannot obtain good opiates pharmaceuticals anymore :/

EDIT: Thought about drinking the poppy tea but I can barely stomach it even when I'm not on speed. I did a small intravenous dose (always worried about entering psychosis when I am using by myself, regardless of if I have slept the night before or not) and the joint pain did subside somewhat, I have no idea whether this is because I returned to my regular ROA or if simply my theory had nothing to do with these pains and I am just high and not thinking about the aches. I don't know, what a strange evening.

Also, I regularly take vitamin b12, but in pill form. I was recently informed that liquid b12 is available in my area without a script & the body can retain more through intramuscular dosing weekly. Anyone use b12 in this form while actively using and noticed side effects of crystal lessening? I would really like to take a break (comical I know) but when I manage to sleep I wake up coming down & I have no benzos or opiates and just end up using again. I don't like the fact that I'm likely going to need to go to detox just to come off speed (unless I obtain opiates/ meds) when I don't even go when I am coming off opiates these days as I'm sick of going there & to rehab centers.

I need to end this edit now, could just write endlessly.... hope this post can be discussed tonight.

 

[hitthescene]

Very relaxed & serene now, found a local supplier of excellent Kratom locally which was modestly inexpensive & used my poppy seed tea the morning after my post in which I did 3 intravenous does, spaced 30 minutes apart x_x my entire body felt like it was dying I could not move out of bed or else I would feel VERY ill, any person not used to seeing me in this condition would have taken me to the hospital but I managed to get the tea down and it started working instantaneously and all my aches/pains, mental condition subsided & I could do ordinary human things like be able to get of bed, take a shower...

anyways just been drinking Kratom consistently until I found that alternate method of CWE for canadian-brand OTC codeine w/ caffeine /A.C which is just terrific, effortless. Only took 80mg oral and blazed a doob & am very faded it is such paradise after how I was letting my body get & have not used crystal for just over 24 hours which feels amazing. I have lots of speed laying around still but even though I feel fantastic & it likely would feel good now I will not even entertain the thought...I just did not want to come off that junk.

Lastly, I purchased vitamin b12 liquid for intramuscular dosing earlier today & it very quickly took away all the relief I was still experiencing until the evening.....teeth clenching!!!! entire body muscle aches & just sketchy....which I read online some individuals do experience but I intent on using it on a routine basis daily at first for the next -3- days (then weekly, monthly, etc) as my immune system and essential minerals/vitamins are needing some TLC

had a great day & I am happy I made better decisions today. hope my words help someone one day on BL as many other's have had an impact on me over the years when I felt so alone & fucked up.

take care bluelight