Benzos Hypomania after benzo binge

[bdomihizayka]

I have no history of bipolar or mental illness besides some anxiety. I took 1mg of xanax for 4 days in a row at night to sleep.

The day after the last night of taking it, during the end of the day, I was FLYING. I was calling everyone in my phone babbling, talking about nonsense- my mouth couldn't possibly keep up with my mind. Hardly got any sleep last night. Today I am still flying high and freaking the fuck out.

I did go through benzo withdrawal before a couple years ago, for a few months with proper taper and I remember I was hypomanic for a hot minute in withdrawals.

I have a variable in the equation though- I just started HRT with test the same day I started using the xanax- so I guess just stop everything and wait to balance out before following through with anything further?

Does anyone else get hypomanic after using benzos, even for such a short use??? I just want to come back to earthhhhhhhhh.

Ground control to major tommmmmmmm

 

[flyhighk]

It's definitely the HRT. Don't stop it!
The benzo has nothing to do with hypomania imo.
You're a male I guess?
Stop using xanax if you don't wanna go through WDs again.
You will 'come back to earth' in a few days once you get used to high testosterone levels.
If you stay hypomanic then the dose is probably too high.
I'm assuming you're a male here.

 

[beforethebeginning]

Interesting topic.
Well,
I have a similar experience.

I'm not officially diagnosed with Bipolar, and even though i had my share of "manic moments",
i consider myself more neurotic/asperger like... than bipolar.

but i've noticed that more than once after a benzo-trip i've felt manic.

To make matters worse, I've been doing downers of different types several times a week for the past 7 months or so,
and i notice that during my sober days i am way more space-ey than I already was before I started doing this.

I'm not sure if it's a mental thing (because I consciously try to be as relaxed as possible as I love being high and hate being tense),
so maybe i'm kind of deliberately getting "stuck" in the trip.

Or maybe it's a neurological thing and my brainchemicals are simply getting trippy at this point.
With space-ey i mean: feeling disconnected from myself & surrounding, living in the moment without thoughts... side-effects: not paying enough attention to things, becoming slow, etc

I feel like there's a demon in me, that causes either anxiety, depression or mania and every fucking moment i need to just "completely chill" or it takes a holdof me

 

[marx131]

That's happened to me a few time on benzos. I suffer from depression so sometimes when I use benzos or opiates the euphoria causes me to act manic.