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Hydromorphone - Inexperienced - ego and attitude on dilaudid

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I'm kind of weirded out right now. I have never done any real ops, until like a few months ago, (codeine was my choice, not that I had a choice, or else i woldnt of chosen codeine)...but a freind FINALLY got something different, hydromorphone...the first couple times I liked the feeling, didnt notice much of anything else...well now, when I do it, of course feels great but it brings this FUCKING attitude/ego that I cant fucking stand.

for example, me and my other freind would argue about the stupidest things, I was obviously right and he was obviously wrong about some weird convo(as usual, and im not being ignorant here) but usually when this is the case he will be like..yeah ok...but he knowingly knew he was wrong and was actually arguing about it...no biggy...but I was like hold on, arent we on hydromorphone, why are we caring so much..and why are you trying to prove yourself even tho we are best friends?

Tonight i did 8 mg over the course of a few hours, and I watched one of my favourate TV shows (top chef)...I found myself criticising the way they where making food (they probably needed it...but) and doing these weird PFFF and HUMPH sounds, and just saying mean shit (this is all to myself, I always talk to myself lol)..Im not this kind of person usually, I'm really really really really laid back..almost too much at times, plus I smoke incredible amounts of ganja which prolly helps..is hydromorphone known to do this, or is it time for an attitude change and a weed break..or neither? its kind of annoying having thoughts in your head you think are totaly wrong....

for another example something that just happened to me, I clicked my computer icon on my computer, and it took a minute to open up, I almost thru a rock at it I was so mad....?
 
Uh...

Given the hostile reaction in OD and the style of the post, I'm gonna unapprove all the replies and shoot this over to Trip Reports.

I get angry on codeine as well, and there have been some threads about this before.
 
I have experianced anger and impatiance while on ops too. I would belive others have as well. It seems to just be a side effect not everyone but alot of people get.
 
Its called the opium bitters, and its rather common among addicted users. I had a friend that suffered the bitters in a bad way. He was nornally a nice guy albeit internally depressed and slightly violent. When he did oxys he would be angry and depressed quite obviously and do irrational things like try to roofie girls at parties. Maybe opiates are not for you.
 
Hmm, appreciate comments, opiate bitters, that sounds right to me,

I woke up in this pissed off mood to, I'm not an addict however, I dont even do alot of opiates, if anything I'm an addict to marijuana and that's something I'm missing for the last day or so, could that be it?..or maybe I shouldnt do opiates...
 
Oxy is notorious for making me really irritable towards stupid/ignorant people. Like, i know a guy, he was chillin with us, we were just smoking cigs, i was on oxy and like he would say something, and whatever he would say was just stupid bullshit, and I would tell him he was completely wrong and tell him how it was, but he would just continue like "No, shut the fuck up, its not like that." and i got so goddamn pissed off, im normally pretty quiet and chill sober or high but this dude had me yelling and pointing fingers. The oxy helped send my angry-meter over the edge, no doubt about it. :!
 
TheNorthern said:
Oxy is notorious for making me really irritable towards stupid/ignorant people. Like, i know a guy, he was chillin with us, we were just smoking cigs, i was on oxy and like he would say something, and whatever he would say was just stupid bullshit, and I would tell him he was completely wrong and tell him how it was, but he would just continue like "No, shut the fuck up, its not like that." and i got so goddamn pissed off, im normally pretty quiet and chill sober or high but this dude had me yelling and pointing fingers. The oxy helped send my angry-meter over the edge, no doubt about it. :!
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thats exactly right....but you where probably right about the dude...just like I was probably right about the things i mentioned...it doesn't NEED to be said or anything, but it just gets to you. weird...maybe it's personal:X
 
theWorldWithin said:
Its called the opium bitters, and its rather common among addicted users. I had a friend that suffered the bitters in a bad way. He was nornally a nice guy albeit internally depressed and slightly violent. When he did oxys he would be angry and depressed quite obviously and do irrational things like try to roofie girls at parties. Maybe opiates are not for you.
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that guy sounds like a ticking time bomb. please don't give him drugs as he's already thought about using them as a weapon.
 
I've been looking for a post just like this!!

What seems like every time Im on opiates, i get very irritable, as if nothing, pleases me. For instance, everything on tv is annoying and uninteresting, listening to music feels like a waste of time, talking to people bothers me. Most of the time i worry about coming down. For me, opiate come downs are a thousand time worse than mdma.

Yet, i still absolutely love opiates!
 
stirfry said:
that guy sounds like a ticking time bomb. please don't give him drugs as he's already thought about using them as a weapon.
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Agreed, but it is a non issue for me personally as I would never involve myself in distribution of drugs, just too risky. Also there is very little you can do for someone with that much inner turmoil, I was just throwing it out there as an example of the opiate bitters in the worst possible way.

Moral of the story, opiates are not for everyone, even if you think they are fun the bitters manifest themselves in bad ways and can lead to severe depression in some individuals. My advice to the OP is to stop before you get in too deep, and th is is not just overly cautious advice. This kind of depression can last a lifetime so do not bring it upon yourself if you are susceptible.
 
I appreciate your concerns, luckily for me, someting like hydromorphone is too strong for a habitual practice and is not often sold around my area, if ever...I'm glad I'm not alone...I've always had access to codeine and ever since I was younger I was doing CWE's and I love codeine (in moderation)...maybe I should just stick with codeine :\

to Depersonalized...thats the same thing that I got, could it be the comedown??????? It defenitely could be the comedown that was annoying to me; especially since I was high for only like a half hour/hour and that DID piss me off........good point, maybe it wasnt as much as the high that was making me moody but losing it LOL.

I probably shouldve added that I did have liquor in my system at the time as well, a few beers.
 
I usually can get extremely irritable on most opiates. It depends on the social setting I'm in though. I used to do them during work (Percocet, Dilaudid, Oxycontin), and would have to deal with customers and managing staff.. I would always get extremely irritated at everyone and I'm just not that kind of person. I also get irritable for short periods of time when I do H as well. I don't really get it..

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