2 years ago when I was quitting buprenorphine I flushed ~15 grams of Oxycontin pills. I'm from Europe so those were "old school" OC pills. I had to flush many times as I had those 20mg pink OCs which I was getting for free from a friend that was prescribed Oxycontin and morphine due to terminal illness. I would get 180 OC pills every month, but as I was on bupe at that time I stored OC for "rainy days". But when the bupe withdrawal hit I was aware that I would flush them or relapse. It is interesting that I also had the strength to inform my friend that I don't want any Oxycontins from his refills. Unfortunately he died few months after that so that were probably last Oxycontins for me. For buprenorphine I didn't care even though I was going through a very protracted and moderate to strong withdrawals. I returned to my doc more than 100 8mg buprenorphine pills. Was hoping that I exercised the pain away but I was wrong. I am still suffering and considering to go back on maintenence. I am thinking about small(er) dose of methadone. It is truly sad that I had to get an opioid use disorder diagnosis to get opioidd prescribed even though I already had a hefty proof that my pain is real and my spine is going through irreversible degenerative process. But abuse of amphetamines in my teens disqualified me as a pain patient. I know Sacklers overplayed it but my situation would be a perfect case study of an "pseudo addiction". If somebody suffers moderate to strong pain on daily basis for more than 10 years he/she shouldn't be looked as an addict trying to fool doctors just to get high on tapentadol...Also I dont know how I "fooled" RTG and MRI. But I digress... This throwing away of large quantity of opioids triggered me. I need a safe room with morphine drip! Now!