Afterwave
Greenlighter
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- Nov 15, 2021
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So I'm on 60mg of Vyvanse - 2x 10mg Dexedrine spansules in the afternoon are still very helpful. My psychiatrist added 2x 10mg extra Dexedrine spansules in the morning (Cuz I found it incredibly difficult to wake up).. It was still very hard for me to wake up - So about 12 months ago, I bought 1g of dextromethamphetamine (Canadian meth), put 600mg into 30ml of water, and made a 20mg/ml tincture. I'd take 5-10mg almost every morning for 6 months...
For the past 4-12 years (Since I had OCD-induced psychosis at age 16), I've felt a lot of "mental pain" - In the psych ward (When I was 18, diagnosed with "schizophrenia" - I think it's just autism with psychosis), I snorted 5mg of Hydromorph-Contin (Cuz people were doing lines of it on the bedside table and I asked "Can I have a line?"). Anyways, I didn't touch it again until I was 20, when I found prescription bottles of "1mg" and "2mg" pills at a BnB - I stole a couple, immediately snorted ~5mg.. I was doing U-47700 at the time (20mg snorted from capsules I made, with tolerance) - I had to take 600mg of methylphenidate, went to sleep, and woke up an hour later (Cuz I ran out of a-PVP).
Anyways, my frontal lobe is much developed now, and I'm responsible, cautious, careful etc (Not impulsive, reckless, self-destructive, manic etc from Abilify).
My dad brought 50mg codeines back from Mexico (And I liked them) - So I bought some opium (Poppy gum), and started smoking it last winter, and in the beginning of this year - I then bought 5x 30mg Hydromorph-CONTINs - I'd pour 30mg of beads into 15ml of water, let it sit for 2 days, add 15ml more of water, filer it out with a coffee filter, and pour it into a tincture bottle (To make a 1mg/ml tincture) - Eventually I bought 11x more 30mg capsules, and made 30ml-2mg/ml tinctures... I bought another 5x 30mg capsules..
I used to take 1-2mg a day, but now I'm taking 2-3mg a day (I'm not sure if that's bad?), since the beginning of this year - So I bought 500g of "Super Red Kratom" (Just in case I get any withdrawals - I said to people that I could just stop like I did before when I was taking 1-2mg a day, and I'd get no withdrawals - But people said that it could be bad).
- I'm on Vraylar now - And it completely killed my severe depression and suicidal thoughts.. So I don't need the Hydromorph-CONTINs anymore, but I do really like them!
- And my dexmeth use has increased to 15-20mg a day (But it's suuuuper clear, calm stuff.. Real d-meth IMO - I tried "Mexican meth", and it made my heart beat a little fast, just like the Adderall I was taking in between the first 1g of meth, and the second 1g of meth - Now I have 3.5g, which will last me a long time). The Vraylar allows me to wake up *without any stimulant - Which is unbelievable to me!*.
Anyways, I quit cigarettes 5 years ago - And quit nicotine gum almost 3x weeks ago.. So dexmeth and hydromorph are the only things I'm addicted to (I've made a 10mg/ml morphine tincture, but it makes me a little irritable cuz of the extra histamine release, I prefer hydromorph).. Not sure what I should do about this.. I could maybe quit the meth easy (Cuz I'm on ADHD medication).
I also take a lot of psychedelics (LSD, psilocybin, psilacetin, DMT, ketamine) - The Vraylar improved my cognition quite a bit. I smoked and snorted lots of meth (In 2017), but tapered off and then quit until 2023 - It feels non-addictive to me basically idk... My bad 4-AcO-DMT trip (In 2016) worked like ibogaine, and it took a while to integrate (Being sober during 2018 from a 3 year long research chemical binge helped - Cuz my mom controlled my bank account, gave me time to readjust and calm down).
Any thoughts would be appreciated =] Ty!
For the past 4-12 years (Since I had OCD-induced psychosis at age 16), I've felt a lot of "mental pain" - In the psych ward (When I was 18, diagnosed with "schizophrenia" - I think it's just autism with psychosis), I snorted 5mg of Hydromorph-Contin (Cuz people were doing lines of it on the bedside table and I asked "Can I have a line?"). Anyways, I didn't touch it again until I was 20, when I found prescription bottles of "1mg" and "2mg" pills at a BnB - I stole a couple, immediately snorted ~5mg.. I was doing U-47700 at the time (20mg snorted from capsules I made, with tolerance) - I had to take 600mg of methylphenidate, went to sleep, and woke up an hour later (Cuz I ran out of a-PVP).
Anyways, my frontal lobe is much developed now, and I'm responsible, cautious, careful etc (Not impulsive, reckless, self-destructive, manic etc from Abilify).
My dad brought 50mg codeines back from Mexico (And I liked them) - So I bought some opium (Poppy gum), and started smoking it last winter, and in the beginning of this year - I then bought 5x 30mg Hydromorph-CONTINs - I'd pour 30mg of beads into 15ml of water, let it sit for 2 days, add 15ml more of water, filer it out with a coffee filter, and pour it into a tincture bottle (To make a 1mg/ml tincture) - Eventually I bought 11x more 30mg capsules, and made 30ml-2mg/ml tinctures... I bought another 5x 30mg capsules..
I used to take 1-2mg a day, but now I'm taking 2-3mg a day (I'm not sure if that's bad?), since the beginning of this year - So I bought 500g of "Super Red Kratom" (Just in case I get any withdrawals - I said to people that I could just stop like I did before when I was taking 1-2mg a day, and I'd get no withdrawals - But people said that it could be bad).
- I'm on Vraylar now - And it completely killed my severe depression and suicidal thoughts.. So I don't need the Hydromorph-CONTINs anymore, but I do really like them!
- And my dexmeth use has increased to 15-20mg a day (But it's suuuuper clear, calm stuff.. Real d-meth IMO - I tried "Mexican meth", and it made my heart beat a little fast, just like the Adderall I was taking in between the first 1g of meth, and the second 1g of meth - Now I have 3.5g, which will last me a long time). The Vraylar allows me to wake up *without any stimulant - Which is unbelievable to me!*.
Anyways, I quit cigarettes 5 years ago - And quit nicotine gum almost 3x weeks ago.. So dexmeth and hydromorph are the only things I'm addicted to (I've made a 10mg/ml morphine tincture, but it makes me a little irritable cuz of the extra histamine release, I prefer hydromorph).. Not sure what I should do about this.. I could maybe quit the meth easy (Cuz I'm on ADHD medication).
I also take a lot of psychedelics (LSD, psilocybin, psilacetin, DMT, ketamine) - The Vraylar improved my cognition quite a bit. I smoked and snorted lots of meth (In 2017), but tapered off and then quit until 2023 - It feels non-addictive to me basically idk... My bad 4-AcO-DMT trip (In 2016) worked like ibogaine, and it took a while to integrate (Being sober during 2018 from a 3 year long research chemical binge helped - Cuz my mom controlled my bank account, gave me time to readjust and calm down).
Any thoughts would be appreciated =] Ty!
