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Hydrocodone is a godsend for social anxiety

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soupynoodle

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For a little background info I have social anxiety and am constantly searching for a cure. I had little luck with anything until recently.

I've experimented off and on with opiates before, but it never occurred to me to try them in a social setting. Any time I got a hold of opiates, I would wait until I was alone to use them, usually trying to experience a nice buzz or the occasional nod. But today when school started I thought, "What the hell," and popped a handful of hydros, amounting to 25mg total. I felt a nice buzz coming on in around half an hour, and realized that I was talking to anyone and everyone I could. I went from bland and socially awkward to funny and a pleasure to be around in a few minutes. And I stayed like that all day. The physical high subsided in 2-3 hours but I was left sociable and energetic. And the best part was that I was myself. I wasn't stupefied and I didn't have artificially low inhibitions as with benzos, alcohol, or other drugs; I was myself but fearless. It was so natural. It seriously felt like this drug was custom designed for me. I'll only be using opiates socially from now on. Such a waste they were when I was alone.

So I know the dangers of tolerance and dependence, and I know to do a CWE in the future, so don't waste your time telling me how to be safe. What I would like to know though is if I will develop a tolerance to these effects. I know if I used regularly I would develop a physical tolerance (having to take more to achieve the same effect), but will the effects themselves ever diminish? They are very important to me (particularly being sociable) and I would probably not use opiates if they did. Thanks in advance.
 
IME, Hydro losses the increased energy/sociability with tolerance. I would keep it for those special occasions so you don't lose the magic all together.

Think of drugs as a teacher and try to practice the lessons it teaches you without using. The change in perspective can be enlightening, just don't let it control you.
 
^ Completely agree because I remember being opiate naïve and 5 mg would have me feeling quite nice for hours. So if you're already up to taking 25 mg at a time, I believe part of it's "magic" is already lost.
 
Percocet 5mg when I was 8 is the feeling I've been chasing for twenty plus years, don't go down this road, there are some nasty twists and turns.
 
Thanks for your replies! Yeah, from what I've read, opiates are a slippery slope to say the least. And I have a very addictive personality (I would guess most anxiety sufferers do), so they'll have to be used PRN. I know APAP is toxic to the liver, so I'll be doing a CWE from now on. I haven't tried it before because I'm afraid I'll mess up and waste my drug... Anyway, I recently acquired some clonazepam. Tomorrow I'll take half of one (0.5mg) and see how it works. I've only had temazepam before, and it didn't do a whole lot for me. I have very little, and am planning on saving at least 1 mg for my graduation ceremony. I know I can't use these regularly either, so is there anything that can mend social anxiety long term?
 
Gyrospeck nailed that one. At first the opiates will seem to make you feel better in social situations. You will get the increased energy levels, feel more comfortable etc. The problem is that over time its effects will diminish and it will most likely cause the exact opposite of the effect you originally experienced. Your better off using it for those special occasions :)
 
Self medicating such disorders in the way you are doing is a major addiction waiting to happen. Yes, effects decrease the more you take them. I'd consult a psych doctor for sure!
 
i've been doing opis for a while now and my d.o.c. for some time has been hydrocodone, thanks to it being the easist opi for me to find, and even after years of taking it, i still have to agree with this. basically makes me feel what i would call normal, but i could definitely see it being a sort of slippery slope. nothing lasts forever. also, you should never self self-medicate this kind of stuff, as nicholai said. talk to a therapist, psychologist, or doctor. can't hurt, ya know?
 
If you take opiates for any kind of psychological torment you will become addicted. Opiates are shit for social anxiety, they work as long as you are high and to get high you will keep have to taking increasing doses. So, yes, the positive effects will vanish and leave you with an addiction that will cause you to become even more socially withdrawn. Get some real help instead, go see a psychologist and get some therapy and a prescription for SSRIs and/or gabapentin/pregabalin (works for me). Opiates are not the solution, I know that much at least.
 
Think of drugs as a teacher and try to practice the lessons it teaches you without using. The change in perspective can be enlightening, just don't let it control you.
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I actually think of morphine as of a god whose name I've taken in vain.
 
Yeah once the magic is gone - that's it... then you're just dependent to feel normal. I have noticed with Kratom though when I take it regularly I am generally more relaxed, even with a tolerance. Kratom is different though in a lot of ways.
 
my boyfriend is the same way. he isnt really good with being around a group of people without just shutting down and wanting to be alone. and or just quiet and non social. but when he takes hydros he is great. talking and interacting with people. but the only bad part about that is he is using a controlled substance to control his anxiety with and now he is withdrawing off of them and having a hard time! just sad that they can make something that will help him the same way that hydros will but not make him withdraw off of em.
 
apache said:
i've been doing opis for a while now and my d.o.c. for some time has been hydrocodone, thanks to it being the easist opi for me to find, and even after years of taking it, i still have to agree with this. basically makes me feel what i would call normal, but i could definitely see it being a sort of slippery slope. nothing lasts forever. also, you should never self self-medicate this kind of stuff, as nicholai said. talk to a therapist, psychologist, or doctor. can't hurt, ya know?
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You've been taking them for years and they still help you? How frequently do you use them?
 
itsabirditsaplane said:
my boyfriend is the same way. he isnt really good with being around a group of people without just shutting down and wanting to be alone. and or just quiet and non social. but when he takes hydros he is great. talking and interacting with people. but the only bad part about that is he is using a controlled substance to control his anxiety with and now he is withdrawing off of them and having a hard time! just sad that they can make something that will help him the same way that hydros will but not make him withdraw off of em.
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Yeah I have the same issues your boyfriend does. I've only withdrawn from nicotine so I don't have much advice, but I hope everything goes well for you guys.
 
soupynoodle said:
Yeah I have the same issues your boyfriend does. I've only withdrawn from nicotine so I don't have much advice, but I hope everything goes well for you guys.
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yeah he is trying but thanks! always a challenge. but if hydros dont work, try Kratom it is great for him and you can get it at any head shop. that is what he switched to for the same thing you are trying to over come! and it isnt a narcotic! he says it gives the same effect if you get the UEI's as a hydro ! :) hope this helps you ! good luck bud!
 
Thinking you need opioids and using them to self-medicate leads to one becoming a very drug-experienced bluelighter. No shit. Wrong road.

Explore other treatments and pharmacotherapies under the auspices of a specialist. Hopefully using other agents that won't wrap you up like self-medicated vicodin will!

Just sayin. ;)
 
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