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how's your year been? aka 2002 a retrospective

What a crazy year now that I think about it...
Highs
- Realising that what I'm doing at uni is not that crap at all and is looking to be something that could turn into a very worthwhile career for me :)
- After going through a rough patch in my very young life after a fucked failed relationship, only to have my bestest friend in the world (*hugs Queen Beat*) introduce me to some beautiful people: apollo, plaz, mirage
- One of the definate high points would be one of those beautiful people becoming my beautiful boyfriend. Thank you for everything Mirage :)
- After quite a devastating weekend, finding out that my best friend is staying in Sydney for the time being
- Snowboarding in NZ :)
- events such as Field day 2002, and looking forward to the ones to come such as welcome 2003 and field day 2003
Now for the depressing part....
Lows
- going through a really rough patch after a relationship breakup and really struggling to find out who I was
- watching my dad get sicker and sicker, and wondering how long he will be able to go on functioning a semi-normal life
- watching my mum get stressed out about my dad
- a complete lack of time to do anything properly!
- Unsure of what my best friend wants out of life, and being completely worried about her for most of the time (although knowing she is in caring hands :) )
On the whole life is good, and within the last month its just kept getting better and better.
Let the good times roll I say, and let 2003 provide and even better time :)
2003 should involve.... graduating, more time with my special boy, some sort of miraculous treatment that will cure parkinsons disease, lots of awesome times with ma gang, many worthwhile events and lotsa good music :)
xx
[ 09 December 2002: Message edited by: star_beats ]
 
good points in 2002
*stoped going out as much and became closer to my freinds again
*became closer to my father
*got out of debt
*alot of soul searching and some life changes
*trip to newcastle
*contacting some old freinds
*experiencing some new things in life
*finding some ppl to move out with at the start of the new year
*quit my job
bad points in 2002
*family life became harder particulary with my mother
*found out how little i actually meant to someone i thought was a good freind
*good old sniffer dogs
*quit my job
*got my nose cracked in
*falling into the depression hole 4 a few months
* having lots of ppl id rather not know about my weekend habits finding out hence being branded a drugo by some family and freinds
*alcohol poisoning OUCH
 
How's my year been? Well I have to say fantastic. I found out I was pregnant in January. Its amazing when you think of all the people who can't get pregnant, we decided to try for a baby and 3 weeks later had a positive result. In March we sold our old house and found the perfect house and got it for the price we wanted. In June I went to Vanuatu to get married. I decided that I wanted my baby to come into the world with a mummy and daddy who were husband and wife. I decided on Vanuatu because I hadn't been overseas, it cost the same as a big wedding here and it was a holiday before bubs was born. October was the most amazing month. I gave birth to the most wonderful thing in the whold wide world. Nothing could prepare me for the amount of love you have when you hold your baby for the first time. I have learnt that being a wife and a mother is not easy, at times its the hardest thing in the world. It takes a lot of patience and respect but its worth it when your baby smiles for the first time (which mine did the other week) :)
Lows of 2002. Giving up work. Giving up normal human contact. As much as I used to hate the 9-5 routine of work at least it was the same each day. Babies do not know what routine is!!
All in all - 2002 has been the most remarkable year of my 24 years so far!
 
Moocho's 2002
Bad Sheeet...
* $525 speeding fine at beginning of January
* Dog dying in August
* Being poor as.
Good Sheeet...
* Having some DJ gear to use at home :)
* Meeting some seriously fuckin cool people (Mostly from Bluelight too!), and continued to have a great year with my best mates!! :D :D
* Going to Sydney with Punch e randomly one Sat night (story is in trip reports)
* Learnt an awesome equation: Moocho + Mirage = (constant) Good Times ;)
* Went out with some nice ladies
* Started DJing at the pub where i started as a glassie only a month or two ago
* Threw my first 3 raves (with Punch e and Silvia Saint :) )
Aaaah i could go on, its been a top year and now things for 2003 are looking even better. Plans to move out very soon are looking real good and im having some serious fun with life. Also realised, when you aquire a job that you LOVE it makes life very fuckin peachy.
:)
 
My year in review -
High points:
* my friends and family who put up with my whinging and bitching all year round :D
* finding a great bunch of friends at uni who help make it less painful to sit through a two hour tutorial!
* having Lush^Puppy move to sydney and live here for an entire year so far! :)
* yet another year with my bubby, even though its up and down, its still worth it! *hugs*
* stoners nights :D
Low Points:
* being a povo uni student and constantly waisting my money on parties and other substances.
* relatively crap uni marks, but i will be rectifying that situation in 2003
hmm... now that i think about it there arnt really many low points that pop into my mind... i guess that makes 2002 a good one! :) YAY!
 
Mirage + Moocho + Taliana = the 3 wikked amigos!!! A crew not to be messed with :) :)
Mooch + Taliana = THAT feeling ;)
 
ok, pretty average year, but then again, there has been quite a few good things to *nearly* balance it out.
high-lights.
* moved out of home, and proved (mostly just to myself) that i *can* look after myself, despite my culinary problems :/
* went to my first rave (as i'd been wanting to for about two years) and loved it as much as anything i've ever done
* ditto for my first pill :)
* danced for the first time...very scary for me, but such a great, great feeling
* moved out with my best mate, and am now even closer, *and* made a new best friend, which is pretty damn cool
* discovered bluelight (i love this place :) )
* did pretty well at uni, despite not really being motivated
* the fact that i'm pretty sure my mum realises that i really *do* love her...i think she had trouble seeing this when we fought fucking constantly when i lived their
* broke up - and remained out of contact with - my stupid wench of a girlfriend, circa jan '01 - jan '02
* turned 18 :D
low-lights
* haven't got my license...that's depressing :/
* couldn't manage to get a fucking girlfriend
* kinda wondering wtf to do with my life, i really don't seem to be good at anything :(
* the one thing i was good at - football - is totally lost, because my foot is fucked
* watched a whole bunch of mates get drafted, and spent the whole time thinking that i could be there, if it wasn't for my foot :(
* had to stop going to the gym - membership was free with football, but obviously not anymore
* fell pretty hard for a girl...but she's in love with my flat mate :)
* tried to learn several things (guitar, drums, c++, french) but gave up 'cos i'm "shit"...these are all new year's resolutions though
* broke promises to myself twice in relation to safe drug use :(
that's all :)
!brad
 
onetwothreefour: If you need tutoringin drums or french, then i can help you - i play the drums in a band (albeit, i'm self taught,) and speak french semi-fluently (can still read and write well.) DOn't give up on the language thing - they're not easy to just pick up - you have to work at it. :)
 
It has been a wild year. And it all started at Harbour Beats and New Years Day at Sounds at the Greenwood.
Highs: Meeting Bluelighters for the first time. Especially Moocho and Shoelace. You guys rock!!
-Road trips to Newy for Cheap Trixx.
-Moving out of Penrith to Randwick. I am now 15 minutes to work, in peak hour traffic, not 1hr 15 minutes away.
-Finding the greatest flat I could ever imagine.
-Learning how to Surf. Yes, I have been smashed and swallowed more sea water that I care to remember, but it is great fun, and will get me fit.
-Pot. Yes, I am now a stoner.
-Landing a promotion at work, and getting a shit load more more money for it.
-Roaccatane. I am finally clearing up, and getting some sort of self confidence back into my life.
Downs: Meeting my first flatmate. She would of had to be the biggest bitch I have ever had the displeasure of meeting in my life.
-Having some dirty low-life scum bag steal the stereo out of my car. I moved out of Penrith that week.
-Comedowns.
-Pot. I am now a stoner.
-Still being single. Having the 'Nice Guy" sindrome sucks.
-Being in debt. Still.
Next year, I will go out less, clear my debt, learn how to Surf confidently, buy a decent car (more debt), and maybe get a girlfriend.
And listen to heaps more quality DANCE MUSIC!!!!
 
Originally posted by *Cosmic Mist*:
onetwothreefour: If you need tutoringin drums or french, then i can help you - i play the drums in a band (albeit, i'm self taught,) and speak french semi-fluently (can still read and write well.) DOn't give up on the language thing - they're not easy to just pick up - you have to work at it. :)
thanks and all, but you're in sydney and i'm in melbourne you know :)
though if anyone else would like to point out some place for drum/guitar lessons (relatively cheap!)...?
although, maybe not, as i'm about to quit my job, so no money! i think i'll have a go at teaching myself though..
!brad
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there have been many highs and many lows for myself over the year. on the whole i think there have been more highs than lows. i cant really be bothered posting all the details...which probably defeats the purpose of posting on this thread.
but i would like to say, that i am very happy about the things i have acheive and the person that i have become.
but.....does anyone feel like that time passes longer now? i seem to remember that a week would pass and i would go..."shit, that was quick."
now i seem to say.." shit, i did a lot in that week, feels like a month or something."
its not a bad thing, it feels like ive done so much. maybe i have...maybe i should stop eating cookies so much. maybe this is what they mean about short term memory loss...
uh..ok.
events: 4 car accidents ( including driving off the road on the way down to melbourne..again..)no airbags deployed fortunately. 2 jobs. 6girlfriends, 2 shags (go figure that out??) odd $5000 gone to "other pursuits..", 2 new pairs of jeans, parents divorcing, 1 hospital admission, 3 melbourne trips, 2 qld trips (melbourne is better), 1 new house, 17 new friends, 1 engangment, 1 funeral, 1 ski trip, 1 pair of shoes.
all in all, i dont regret a single thing that has happend. ive smiled and laughed about everything the whole year. sorry for taking up so much room.
 
2002...
this has without a shadow of a doubt been the most EXCITING, SCARY, and CATACLYSMIC year of my entire life!
this year started with me coming back from the gold coast, after evaluating my life after graduating from university and luckily getting a job... i had decided that a change was due... i was not happy with the way my life was going... and something needed to be done about it...
highlights of the year for me...
* joining the gym and getting fit
* starting my first real job
* my first paycheck :)
* my first kiss :) (and second, third...)
* my first pill :) (and second, third...)
* my first rave (two tribes) (and second, third...)
* meeting the bluelighters
* all of the parties i have been to
* going to canberra for twisted republic
* all of the parties i have been to
* all of the people i have met
* my own self-growth and confidence improvement
* the SOLAR ECLIPSE
* all of the parties i have been to
* plus more besides...
the hardest thing of this year was the rapid change i experienced... growth hurts, and even though it is exciting, it can leave one very drained and unsure of themselves... this has been the case with me many times during the year... it has been one roller-coaster ride...
i would humbly like to thank all my new friends for the support and care they have shown me during the year... and for all the shit they have taken from me... and i would like to apologize for all the stupid things i have said and done... it has been a very hard year for me and i don't mean to make people feel uncomfortable... but usually it is my fault... i accept that and take the blame...
there are a few days of the year left... at midnight on 31st December 2002, i am going to have shivers going through my body just thinking about how much i have changed (for the better, and for the worse) during this year...
it is going to be hard to top 2002... i don't think i ever will until i go overseas... 2003 will be a much more relaxed and focused year...
i wish everybody the best for 2003 and hope that you have a very very happy new year... i hope to share the new year with as many of you as possible... you have really made a difference in my life...
cheers!!!
Cohaa.
 
im just posting this beacuse....
i think everyone reads the first two lines of this thread and then decides to ramble on about their own life for 2 hours...hehe. im guilty too.
im assuming the only people that will read this are the people who post and check to see if their life story has posted....
 
2002
The bad...
* Splitting up with a great girlfriend after a minor-disagreement turned into an argument after I said something mean in a grammar typo. No words could salvage what had been said. Things just went from bad to impossible from there. We agreed to discontinue communication with each other as the baggage had become too great. It hurt me greatly then, many months have past and it still hurts me now.
* Nearly getting the reposession men taking goods in my house because I wasn't keeping up with the bills. It took me ages to bring back financial stability.
* The death of nerve in a molar tooth. Talk about agony for ages. The pain was not even measurable on the richter scale. :X
* Loosing a couple of good friends through petty incidents. :(
* Hearing "IT'S ALL GOOD!" about a trillion times too many. :D
The good...
* I'm healthier.
* I'm more likely to speak my mind instead of bottling the feelings inside.
* I'm more dedicated at work and don't let myself get pushed around by upper management.
* I'm no longer ingoring many of the world events and have subscribed to the Green Left Weekly.
* My house increased in value by 25% in one year and I have re-drawn the cash against the current market value. Yay! More cash so I can buy all the things/rennovation stuff for my house.
* In general.... I'm a lot more stable and confident about myself now than I was one year ago. And that has got to be good.
 
I'm doing this for my own sake...
high points
- played guitar in two bands
- getting drunk on the weekends instead
- getting wasted on the odd occassion with good friends
- reading so many great books
- starting to learn keyboard
- only failed two out of eleven end of year uni exams
- knowing how valuable good friends really are
low points
- losing friends
- people not excepting me for who i am, more so; what i choose to do
- failing two uni exams
- anorexia (i'm fine now, 70kg is an accomplishment for me)
- facing depression, inertia and being truly affraid when i really shouldn't be
 
2002 : What a fucking year.
It can be divided up into a few sections.
Part 1 : The Learning Curve (NYE to March)
* Lots of drugs, lots of partying.
* A relationship which was fucked, but I was too fucked to realise it till it eventually died.
* Crazy roadtripping up and back to Sydney
* Firefighting, my first dead body.
* A lot of writing, starting to form the idea that I could write a novel, the ideas take shape. Write my 'suicide essay'.
* My friendship with Apollo begins.
* Hijiinx's last dance!
Part 2 : "Only after you lose everything" (March - June)
* Slide into heavy drinking, codeine abuse and smoking far too much weed every night.
* Attempt to commit suicide (failed)
* Realisation that I am not an ordinary guy, and I see things differently to most.
* The bluelight beach party.
* Nearly move to Canberra, but Public Service doesn't decide to give me a job.
* My novel progresses, and my writing evolves into a more merciless style. My first Porn story also!!!
* The idea of moving to Sydney crosses my mind.
Part 3 : The rollercoaster goes up and down! (June - September)
* Decide to move to Sydney, Apollo encourages this move.
* Start talking to Queen Beat (formerly up all night).
* Twisted Republic, the LAST Cbr crew party with myself as a member. Its a blast, my first trip as well!!!
* Move to Sydney, impulsively, begin looking for work.
* Up and down and round and round, emotional rollercoaster to say the least.
* UTOPIAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
* My first REAL job.
Part 4 : The distance to here... (September - Now)
* My novel hits the 30,000 word mark.
* My first APARTMENT! (shared with Apollo).
* My present job as well.
* The good times roll, and it doesn't seem that life gets too much better than this.
That brings me to here, where I am now. Its been a big year, a huge year, a harsh growing up, being thrown into it all, well actually throwing myself into it all. There's been some immense moments of sadness and loneliness, but who hasn't had those? I've realised I have what it takes to write (for myself at least), I have a job, I think I could be considered 'successful' by any conventional means, and more importantly than that, I am starting to attain some kind of inner peace, which I so desperately craved.
I've learned, loved, and lived.
That's all there is to ask from life. That's all I will ask from life.
:)
I was going to finish up with a quote, but I won't do that.
I'm me, and that's all I ever will be, and if you love me for that, then I will love you back as much as I can.
-plaz out-
 
*MOOCHO*- henry died?! :(
its been a rough year for me. theres been quite a few ups and sadly to say more downs than ups. hopefully this coming year will bring me more joy though.
HIGH POINTS:
*my ever growing friendship and closeness with Tarsarlan :) hes helped me so much through last year
*meeting someone at two tribes sydney...falling in love with each other and having a great 9mth relationship
*my monthly trips to melbourne to see all my close friends
*partying with lil leecie my best freind
*moving from sydney to central coast of nsw
*planning to move to melbourne again :)
*new baby sister was born :)
*my many earthcore trips and meeting sooooooo many great people and learning the true meaning of friendship :)
*comin to melbourne for new years eve to spend it with my friends :)
LOW POINTS:
*family member being diagnosed with advanced cancer
*anniversary of tradgic house fire and death :( :(
*breaking up with the one guy who was so great 4 weeks ago :(
*learning to stand on 'my own two feet' again
*finding out people arent what they seem
*loosing job before christmas
Summary:
the last year has been tough. but whos life wouldnt be complete without troubles and hard times. after all the bad times have sotred out it can only build you up stronger so you learn from them. so i would like to say a big thankx to 2 specail people in particular LiL' Leecie and Tarsarlan.if it wasnt for you two people being in my life right now and keeping my head and mind held together i would surely be lost and not here. you two are the true meaning of what a friend should be in life.i am lucky to have both of you.
[ 13 December 2002: Message edited by: *starfalls69* ]
 
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