how'd I do for my first post?

[windflower]

tried making an account on drugs-forums but it won't let me accept the rules, so here I am, next best choice - Bluelight :D !!

here's a little about myself... Im 23 and live in Delaware (the first state!!!) and I am currently still using. Been an addict for 7 years now... I have tried to get clean numerous times but in all attempts I just fail x/ I enjoy the little things in life that most people take forgranted - shelter, clothes, water, the sun, the moon, etc. I also love to write, take photos, practice witchcraft, swim, hoop, I love music, art, hiking, camping, makeup, being on quads & more... Right now I am searching for hope and a little guidance to help me find recovery. I know its out there so here I am putting my hand out there !!

some things I will be posting/ looking at while Im on this site: drugs, recovery, witchcraft, rehabs, art, music (mostly punk rock, metal)

if anyone else is from Delaware, say hello :')

thanks xx
much love

 

[Unik04]

Welcome,

recovery can seem like a long hard road and often is, but nothing that's worth it is easy. From personal experience, I was able to move forward from my alcohol addiction from finding a reason to live and stuff that motivated me and kept me busy. I started a business and completely moved my life around for the better. Before that I did 4 rehabs and it didn't help on the long run because yeah it's gonna work while you're there but back to your environment it's not so easy, I find the people around you really makes the difference...if you stay with people who use you will use aswell. Helping others (people/animals) is also known to help recovery...I worked at an animal shelter and it really did wonders.

Best of luck

 

[Bearlove]

Hi there and welcome to your runner up choice of sites.

We have a sober living section that covers people in recovery and support and you can find that section here. I hope you got the chance to see the super moon last night - It was very impressive and a lot of people are talking about it around the site.

If your struggling to navigate the site or need any help, please feel free to ask and somebody will help you out.

 

[windflower]

Thank you! How long were you a drinker? Did you know that this was it when you went to your last treatment center? I dont really know how to explain how I feel or what kind of position Im stuck in, but its like Im at the point where I have no hope left so its like why even try? Why bother? ya know? Idk, and the weird part is, its not my head thats telling me not to try, its my body. Im literally physically stuck. I went to rehab last week and once I got there I totally freaked out and left. My body would not move. It wouldnt take any steps forward into that building. It just kept telling me to run! run far, far away from this place! Idk if Im even making any sense right now haha but Im trying. Idk Im suppose to be going to rehab tonight and I am scared but I can do it if I really try. I just gotta KEEP IT SIMPLE, STUPID! Gotta stop thinking so much about every little thing and just do what I gotta do. Most of my friends are clean so once Im clean I should be OK. My boyfriend said he'd buy me a camera and things I like once I am clean so I feel that would help A LOT keeping my mind occupied with the things I enjoy. Idk. Its time to start a better life... its just hard pushing myself...

thank you for the kind words x

 

[Bella P]

*clapping* amazing first post ??

Goodluck with getting sober. It is possible, but you really need to want to do it. your fear of rehab is normal, as much as you want to get sober, there is a large part of you that doesn't.

I tried to get myself clean on my own and it was a bad decision that culminated in 3 suicide attempts... then I was hospitalised and it was much easier.

My advice is to speak up; to whoever it is thats helping you. if you are on the verge of relapse, tell someone. you get hit with depression, tell someone. When the WD's hurt, tell someone.

You can't get any gear without someone writing a script or selling it to you... so don't expect yourself to be able to quit on your own. Trade dealers and dodgy doctors for support people.

let people help you. when you feel you can't go any further let someone help you limp along. You got this girl!

I'm only 7.5 months clean. Every day I have to decide to stay clean.... I only have 1 day at a time in me... but that 1 day mantra has brought me up to 205 total.

Best of luck hun. im sending you all my strength xx