Centipede of Horus
Bluelighter
Thug love i say that from experience. Using weed regularly has held me back from my ambitions, goals, and self love consequently. I have a problem only using occasionally. When i start smoking daily it quickly becomes the focus of my life... all i do is work enough to pay my bills, get high, eat junk food, and sloth out.
I dont feel like investing in my future or the lives of my future children, i am miserable with self loathing, but the compulsion to stay high is huge. The happiest times of my life have been when i havent smoked for months but i find it hard to get and stay sober.
My life would likely be much better had i never touched it... it could hardly be worse (barring something extreme like another addiction).
SAve yourself, quit now and never look back.
I dont feel like investing in my future or the lives of my future children, i am miserable with self loathing, but the compulsion to stay high is huge. The happiest times of my life have been when i havent smoked for months but i find it hard to get and stay sober.
My life would likely be much better had i never touched it... it could hardly be worse (barring something extreme like another addiction).
SAve yourself, quit now and never look back.