yeah yeah yeah, dude, either do something about it, or don't. I recommend doing something about it.
Also, movies aren't real life. Not all women care about having the guy who can fuck her better. I sure as hell don't. Some of us actually care about finding someone we love and care about regardless of how good they are in bed. Your value is not how good a fuck you are. In fact to me that counts for absolutely nothing. I'd rather date the sweet awesome guy who sucks in bed than the douchbag who's awesome. Look how many men have had sex with chicks who are great in bed but total psychos, they'll have sex with them but much of the time they wind up with the nice, sensible girl.
Say it with me, movies, aren't, real life.
What do you actually want? You can't change the past so forget that, so you can either die, or just start having sex now and try and get over it.
And lots of people haven't had sex all the time since their youth and still don't care. Asexuals for example. Plus a whole lot of other people. I've only had sex with a few people, and some of them I somewhat regret.
But I get the feeling you're beyond reason here. And refuse to see that this is delusional.... which is what makes it a delusion.
I'm just gonna lay this out straight and honest for you here.
You seem to feel nothing is worth doing in life, finding a girl, having sex, anything really, because in your mind you've 'lost' at life because you didn't have lots of partying and sex when you were younger. And feel like your life isn't worth having as a result. Now that is completely bullshit, what you have is a delusion, you can't see it obviously because it's a delusion, but it is in fact that. You need the help of mental health professionals, do youself a huge favor. Go to a psychiatrist, maybe a psychologist, or both. Even if you're 100% sure they can't help you and there's no point, do it anyway. You have nothing to lose here by doing it. As sure as you are of your beliefs, I beg you to do it. You need help. We can't help you. You need a professional.
We have all told you repeatedly that what you believe isn't true. Among us are people who did have lots of sex and partying at a young age, and among us are those that didn't, and we're all telling you your beliefs aren't true. Yet you can't accept that, you'd think face with that evidence a rational person would begin to question if what they believe is as true as they think. But I understand that's going to be hard for you. Unfortunately it'll take a little faith on your part. Please, go to a psychiatrist. You can get help. You can have a life worth having and all you gotta do is have a little faith and give people a chance to help you. By going to your doctor and finding a local psychiatrist andor psychologist you can see.
If at any point you feel suicidal, go to the hospital. There are people trained to help you, and who want to help you, please let them.
I know you don't see it, and everything you feel feels absolutely true, which I know makes it hard to believe that you can get help and have a life you like living. But you have nothing to lose by trying. There's nothing that'll improve in your life by doing nothing. So do something, and I strongly recommend that something being to seek the assistance of mental health professionals.
