I have to get off dope, I am fucking my life up.
I don't trust myself to be 100% clean, I've tried many times, and everytime, something clicks in my mind and says, "well shit, now that your done withdrawing and clean, you'll get the most bang for you buck! Perfect time to use!" Especially when I started to save any sizeable amount of money... " Oh, I'll just use a little bit tonight, whats $60?!"
I have assimilated a list of suboxone licensed doctors here in the Land Of Lincoln. I just got insurance, and would like to get on buprenorphine, because using anything else while on it, is pointless, and it kills my opiate cravings. It also reinforces not using other stuff via negative feedback. Spending a buncha money on dope, just to have it do jack shit, really makes it seem pointless.
Are you actually physically addicted to heroin at the moment? Sorry but from your post it seems like you've done the hard part and want to get on subs to prevent a relapse? If I'm mistaken ignore me, but if your off H I'd stay away from maintenance opiates, you'll be an addict forever. Again sorry if I'm mistaken, just in the end subs/meth are just as addictive as H (maybe not as life destroying) but if you can manage without them, then do it you'll be better off.
I'm in a similar situation, well, mines a little different. I can't get on any buprenorphine containing drug until I get my SS card mailed to me which might take as long as another 4-10 days which I need to get a new state ID. Basically I've heard the key to getting the tex is to say your allergic to the food coloring. However I'm kind of interested in this new zubsolv. but I think I'm going to ask the doctor for buprenorphine injectable ampules, just seems more practical ya know?
I used to be a moderator for two forums (including this one bro) you think I'm a jack ass, it was a fucking joke. and as far as my memory recalls 300mcg IV is equal to 1mg of buprenorphine, so 600 IV would be 2mg. (which technically is a low but still a maintenance dose) when I shot bupe I never did more than a .6mg infusion.
Sorry to be rude, I've been treated like dirt for years, people spitting on me as I panhandle and I'm no fucking fool, but perhaps I should have put ain there to make it clear I wasn't being serious.
Every person I have ever encountered maintaining on bupe still lived the junky lifestyle. Don't do that to yourself. Hard parts over so just stay off. You need NA meetings or mental health therapy. Get 30 days truly clean(no lope) and you won't think about it so much and will laugh you were considering handcuffing yourself for life on subs.