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How pathetic am I....

You're not a scumbag at all. You just wanted to get high for a short bit and possibly a bit of attention. Think about your life before you try to hurt yourself again. Good luck.
 
Thank you for replying! I needed to get that off my chest.... I can not believe I went to that measure for a quick high!
 
I met a girl in rehab who slammed her hand in the car door to get pills. Lots of people do stuff like this out of desperation.

This doesn't make you pathetic or a bad person. I feel happier high too, but I just can't do it anymore.
 
Sometimes I think of how fun it would be to have a broken leg and be lying down in hospital being given Morphine. Sometimes I have weird ideas of how to injure myself to try get some pain killers. The best one I have come up with is trying to hurt my neck doing weights and going to the doctors after the gym session. It has not worked, it only worked once and that was unintentional lol. I got Tramadol that time, a couple of times when I have attempted the neck excuse I have been told to get OTC NSAIDS LOL.

So not as bad as trying to break my hand, but mehh in the same boat. Try find a hobby.
 
Sweetie you're far from a scumbag.I like to get high to, it makes my existence easier.

Getting a hobby is a good idea, I've been saying that about myself a lot lately as well.
 
It's not you that did it, it's the monkey on your back. Everyone who has experienced addiction has done stuff they are ashamed of afterwards. It's when you do those things and DON'T feel bad that you know you have hit rick bottom.
 
Scumbag is a strong term to use.....People have done much, much worse...Maybe you're depressed, maybe you just lost it for a minute...Definitely don't get in the habit of using opiates to kill your pain....
 
Yeah your not alone. Bout 4 years ago(sr year of high school) I was out early in the morning tearing up my back deck and I was drinking while doing it and I got the strong urge to do opiates so I put my left arm on the deck and wacked my forearm a good 5 or 6 days. My whole forearm was black, bruised and swollen but not even clise to broke. I didn't even go to the hospital I just iced it while feeling like a complete moron lol nowadays even tho I get cravings like that I would never do that
 
Don't talk down about yourself like that, those are the feelings that lead you to further using the drug. Hopefully this is an example of why it's better to kick this opiate addiction before you start to follow through and do some pretty bad things to yourself. You aren't the first person who's done this to themselves.
 
badfish45 said:
Once you get past the physical symptoms it still is difficult. Since you were psychologically addicted to marijuana and now to opiates, it sounds like you need something to replace your addictive personality with. My friend replaced his with physical activity such as boxing, wrestling and working out, oh, and he uses his money to buy a lot of delicious food :) Do you have any hobbies that opiates have been preventing you from perusing? If so, now is the time to get back and focus in on them. Go check out an NA meeting and see what you think about it, make some good sober connections and work on achieving happiness without drugs.
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lol... badfink...

Man we got some shit we need to speak about nigga.

I literally JUST returned to this site. And in my time in THIS forum alone, I've seen countless advice to take up a wiser alternative over a superharmful drug. Take that one thread for example... the one about the dude huffing paint? COUNTLESS people recommended taking up salvia or nitrous over DESTROYING his body and brain with gas? Now is that bad advice according to your standards?

I said this, and exactly this: "If you want an opiate high that bad, you can go to your store and get some poppy seeds to brew up."

I mean shit, BL, is this really a nigga y'all approve of? On a site dedicated to the use of psychoactives, I advised someone to take up a legal alternative to self-mutilation to get shot up with Demerol?

lol... You're a coward buddy. When I got a PM about an infraction I was expecting to get one of my recent explicit sex threads taken down. I had no intention but to be civil and provide civil help to that girl, and if you don't see that, you're on more drugs than I am.

You're a child... what are you like ... 15? 16? Just a guess based on your behaviour.

I'm hoping any staff member reading this will understand and deal with this kid. He needs to be removed. I don't see how any legit staff can approve of this? You must be a drifter? What do you sign on once a month or something?
 
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Korey,
If you're feeling like a situation is unjust I'd like to revert you to a must read for all dark siders thread here. It gives you and everyone else a good idea on what flies.

Your best bet would be continuing the topic less publicaly so that everyone can get back on track.

The thread i linked is worth reading over, and if you feel you need to contact someone to explain yourself I would persuade you to send a PM to any of the Senior Staff members that oversee this section.

muvolution is the senior mod.
& the admins that oversee the section are;
ocean
alasdairm
 
Laika said:
Korey,
If you're feeling like a situation is unjust I'd like to revert you to a must read for all dark siders thread here. It gives you and everyone else a good idea on what flies.

Your best bet would be continuing the topic less publicaly so that everyone can get back on track.

The thread i linked is worth reading over, and if you feel you need to contact someone to explain yourself I would persuade you to send a PM to any of the Senior Staff members that oversee this section.

muvolution is the senior mod.
& the admins that oversee the section are;
ocean
alasdairm
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Who's side are you on bro?
 
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