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How open are you about your drug use? Who knows you use drugs?

It really depends on what drug I'm using if I'm smoking weed I don't care who knows but if I'm doing coke I'm pretty open about it (not at work or anything tho)
But since I've been using crystal again I don't let anyone no just because its so looked down on around here and I don't want to be judged for a bad habit even tho I still have a job and do school
I guess I needa let some of my friends know but as of right now it's the people I use with and maybe 3 other people who don't use and I don't use with them
 
How many of you are "undercover addicts"

By that I mean how many of you guys have a habit- like a medium to heavy habit that you manage to keep under wraps from everyone. In my case pretty much everyone in my life know about my addiction issues, I have been to rehab multiple times, been on detox and had ODs and other health scared related to my drug abuse. Recently though I went into detox and got clean. I only lasted for a few days but I changed my life by getting a full time job and just generally getting my shit together and now everyone believes I am clean and doing really well. I feel pretty terrible for essentially living a lie but honestly other than needing dope to stay well my life has become pretty normal. I've made a huge effort to spend time with friends and family as when I hibernate they always now I'm using. I can't believe how easy it has been to keep my use a secret! Just curious about how other people do or don't keep their use private. Experiences?
 
I'm like the Get Smart version of undercover.

I'm bubbling sometimes undercover, but i have gadgets and compartments, and i eventually save the day. But for anyone I know is cool with it I let'em know. Basically a friends / family and work people divide. . I can't tell everybody.

Also, in public, is sooo easy not to look like a druggie if u care not to. nice short hair cuts are cheap, so are basic button shits... go one day with a half fix.
 
I managed to keep my heroin addiction a secret from everyone for the first 7 years I would say.
I managed to hold down a full time job and I never mixed with other addicts.
My dealer was aware of my desire to keep my use a secret so he never talked about me and I would only go around his place when he was on his own or he would come to meet me somewhere.
My secret only came out when I went over on some particularly strong gear and had to be taken to hospital.
 
I keep it undercover because all of my drugs are prescribed. Adderall, Xanax, Valium, Pain Pills. I have real diagnoses that need treatment but sometimes I admit I get a little high and nobody knows. LOL
 
I was good for about the first year, then times got desperate & word got out. I can mostly thank my 'friends' for that, but fuck 'em, I really don't care who knows about my addiction.
The only person in my family who knows is my mother, but she thinks I've been clean. Which isn't far from the truth. I've cut back alot on my use. Normally I'd be 10 bags in, now I've limited myself to 1-3 a day.
I guess it helps not having a job. However, I still got that addiction mentality, which is hard to shake.

Alot of people think they're undercover, but it's so obvious to spot, especially if you do the same drugs. & If you live in a small town, word gets out quick.
So just because you hide your bags, needles, cottons, whatever.. Doesn't mean nobody knows. Unless you nod out in your room, while laying on the bed, and don't have any activities or have to interact with anyone - somebody probably knows about your use.
There's always that one time where you get too complacent, and end up leaving the needle out or some sort of evidence while nodding out. Shit happens.
 
I'm extremely open with my drug use to people I know. If they can't accept it, it's their problem. Of course I wouldn't go around at work shouting that I did heroin though and I do wear long sleeves when I have to interact with people that it's best if they don't know anything.
 
I'm dependent on heroin. My dealer's the only one that knows about my heroin use. Heroin has such a stigma around it, that I can't even talk to my closest friends about it without being judged. Most people know I'm a stoner, I'm pretty open and obvious (reeking, smoking in public, and etc.) about smoking weed 24/7. I let my close friends know about my psychedelic and some pill use (omitting frequency of the latter), but my openness depends on their openmindedness.
 
When I was using, I was almost always a undercover addict.

Minus using friends.
 
I was / am an undercover addict. It's been about 6 or so years too. I only stopped with the full time dope when I od'd. They found so much of my pain meds and benzo's missing from their bottles that the doc told my parents I tried to commit suicide and I've been running with that so people still don't know. My mom and other relatives know I've used drugs but they don't know I used to snort a gram of dope a day.

That all being said, everyone knew I was an alcoholic. I also def talk about drugs too much. Enough that people probably wouldn't be surprised if they found out I've tried LSD, MDMA, etc. I'm 99.99% sure that no one knows about the H. I'm a very private and reclusive person, but I can also charm the shit out of people so I tend to manipulate people.
 
People really don't seem to realize just how much I drink, and only a select few know about my heroin use, otherwise, my friends just know that I've taken a lot of drugs and smoke a lot of pot.

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At this point in my career I've made the mistake of being open to some people I thought were cool that just tried to shame me, get me to go to rehab, and try and force me to go to 12 step programs. Most of these are my friends that eventually their use dwindled to pretty much nothing (except shit tons of alcohol, of course, which to them is not a drug 8)). Funnily enough when any of said people want to do some drugs who do you think they call :\. I also have a huge extended family that all live together in a particular metropolitan area and are very conservative. I did not know this because my immediate family left said city when I was very young. I thought my cousins my age in fun colleges would be willing to swap stories... boy was I wrong. This was before the opiates though.

So like I said, 6 years of learning to lie and manipulate people has kept almost everyone I know in the dark.
 
Hello,

I am a director for a youth prevention program as well as a youth pastor, and I frequently do research on this subject. As a result, I stumbled across this post. Today I was reading a drug info pamphlet and some of the side effects of drugs. I decided to google and see what other people were experiencing.

One thing I know from research and experience within my own family, substance abuse can trigger mental illness and psychotic episodes. It happened to my brother who is now schizophrenic. Whether he was predisposed to begin with, we will never know; but he will never, ever be the same. Be careful! Drugs artificially produce dopamine in the brain. In healthy brains, dopamine will decrease as to not cause an overload, resulting in psychosis. Dopamine is a feel good hormone. Abuse of drugs causes the brain to no longer produce dopamine naturally, therefore becoming dependent on the substance. Also, with some people, I believe (as in my brother), their brain may not decrease dopamine when the drug is consumed, again, resulting in psychosis. Make sense? I hope you know my intentions are good here :) Best wishes to you!
 
Youth Pastor said:
Whether he was predisposed to begin with, we will never know...
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He was pre-disposed to begin with. I believe that drugs can "flip the switch," so to speak, in a person's brain and bring about certain mental illnesses, but the predisposition was already there.

People have gone away on vacation and come back schizophrenic, chronically depressed, etc. Sometimes that's all it takes, some change in a person's life like moving to another state or country, going away on vacation, breaking up with a girlfriend or boyfriend, or... sometimes drugs. (shrugs)
 
Youth Pastor said:
Drugs artificially produce dopamine in the brain. In healthy brains, dopamine will decrease as to not cause an overload, resulting in psychosis. Dopamine is a feel good hormone. Abuse of drugs causes the brain to no longer produce dopamine naturally, therefore becoming dependent on the substance. Also, with some people, I believe (as in my brother), their brain may not decrease dopamine when the drug is consumed, again, resulting in psychosis. Make sense? I hope you know my intentions are good here :) Best wishes to you!
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That is a very very serious over-generalization. Different drugs do different things that may not be related to each other in anyway. Many of the drugs people take have a medically approved use. I suggest you read some posts in the Advanced Drug Discussion so set some misconception straight.
 
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