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How open are you about your drug use? Who knows you use drugs?

bang that shit said:
yea man, i used to flaunt it also. I regret that alot now. Cause i have yet to find a girl that thinks IV drug use is hot
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I used to flaunt my use when I was young, and people to this day will still call asking about drugs, or tell my parents that they know I am on drugs.

The last girl that I hooked up with thought it was hot that I shot up hydromorphone. I guess she kinda liked bad boys and shooting up has some very serious taboo associated with it. I regret hooking up and telling that girl now.
 
my close friends know about everything... my mom knows about my marijuana use from catching me a few times in high school, and people I meet usually get the general idea that im open to things and like to have fun
 
Only few good friends (about 5..) know everything about what I ever tried, almost everybody knows I smoked weed (well I still do but use vaporizer so it's not real smoking ha).
 
I think my whole family knows that I occasionally smoke pot, but whatever.
Most of my friends know that I've done a variety of psychedelics, MDMA/MDA, GHB, and nitrous.
Only certain people know that I do ketamine and cocaine, because the people who are most close to me would not approve. I hate to hide it from them, but I know how deeply it would upset them, one person in particular..
 
Very very very close friends that I know will stick around and have stuck around for quite some time

My best friends mom

Less than 3 very serious and private psychonauts

2 "in the family" friends of mine that use with me.

I keep my use very silent, for good reason too. I don't tell the people that do know what I do extensively, other than the 2 "in the family" friends. I'll discuss all my tripping times with the psyconauts and that's about it. I do this stuff for myself and no one else. It's a private thing for me.
 
My dad is understanding about it

The rest of my family found out when I got expelled for possession
 
I'll answer inquiries honestly so long as it won't effect my career etc, but I don't go out of my way to advertise it either.
 
I used to try and be pretty secretive about it but up until recently almost everyone knows. All my friends, of course, but now my entire family knows that I'm addicted to opiates.
 
i use to be realy open mainly cause i didnt care, but it just leads to problems especialy with harder drugs
 
Open with who?
With my ultra conservative parents?
They know about the meds I am prescribed (and look down on me for it)....
With casual aquaintances?
Once again, I have no problem sharing with just about anyone info about the meds I am legally prescribed, but a new friend generally has to break the ice into "illegal" territory for me to share any "less-than-legal" chemical habits...
With friends?
If we get fucked up together, most of it ends up coming out. I don't have a whole lot of friends who are sober.
With BEST friends?
Only 2, maybe 3 of them exist, and they know the TRUE extent of my past and present drug use. I feel the reason I retain certain info to only these select few is the ultra-conservatism of aforementioned parents. If word got to them about some of the things I've done-
Oi! :-/
 
Unfortunately my mother knows, she blames herself as my sister has a worse habit then I do. My dad died of a combonation of Hep C from drug use, and liver disease from drinking on all the pain meds he was prescribed due to an injury to his vertebres at work. I don't talk to my sister she is in a world of trouble she does a mix of her BF adderrall (snorted), IVing roxies, IVing coke, and more (this is in a day). I have expressed my concerns to my mom, she just comes back with "well you are no better". I am a mother myself (to 3 wonderful kiddos) I would never turn my back on my kids wether one was worse off or the other.

If anyone read my new member intro I have an opiate habit myself. I am not saying one persons addiction needs help more than the other. My little sister started this, dropped out of high school, can't keep a job, lost her car, and her boyfriend and her live with my mother.

Back on track.... Sorry I vented....

My "real" friends know of my use as I use with them, as I said my mother knows (to what extent i'm not sure), my husband knows (we do use together), my aunt knows (when she runs out of her norco's we split scripts)

Other than that NO. It is not my bosses place to know. I am a dog groomer, her only employee. I am never late, never call in, never ask for time off, work 6 days a week. All she knows is that I can't lift large dogs, and have a script for pain meds. She does not know I run through it in a week, and then buy roxies from my friend, but that is not her place to know. Does anyone need to know I eat the Norco's double time, no. Does anyone need to know I turn all my tips from work into roxies, and snort them, no. I have even been to work in the begining of WD's I just tell my boss I am not feeling well, but will finish the dogs. They all go home happy, I fake it till I am home.

My kids make it to every "extracaricular" (sp?) activity they want to go to, WD's or not.... It's nobodies fault but mine I go through my script too soon, and buy from friends
 
I've always considered myself very private about it, but reading the other responses it sounds like I'm about the same. No to coworkers, casual acquaintances, most family. My mum knows I do drugs -- I don't talk about it a lot because I don't like to worry her.

I've had some bad experiences. An boyfriend found out I'd taken meph once, and when we broke up he proceeded to tell everybody at my work that I was a drug addict and needed help. I did later run myself into the ground with meph, but at the time it was a crazy wanker thing to do.

Another former friend knew about my mephy past, but assumed that that meant I wouldn't ever do drugs again. We were quite close friends and the strain of lying about it was really shit. The friendship deteriorated as he got more controlling and weird with me. Whenever I mentioned anything, trying to be honest, he'd be like "BUT YOU DON'T DO THAT ANYMORE". He was such a jerk about it that I was kinda scared of what he'd do if I set him straight. Drag me to rehab? Follow me around for my own protection?

My ex, a fellow bluelighter by the name of Mugz, is the only person I'm really honest about it with. We lived together, and saw each other at some pretty low points and some very high points, so there's no reason to keep secrets. It's good to have someone to chat to without having to watch my every word.

I've given up on having friends really (besides Mugz). I don't mind being a hermit, and I do go out with acquaintances and do non druggy stuff -- but proper friendship, letting someone in and telling them the truth and whatnot? I don't think I can handle it. Perhaps honesty isn't an important part of friendship, but I find maintaining the secrecy so exhausting I'd just rather be on my own!
I suppose there's option #3, of stopping doing drugs so I don't have to lie. On the one hand, I've chosen drugs over a social life, and that's probably bad. On the other hand though... I don't think it'd be necessary if people around here weren't such cocks about drugs.
 
I'm not really open about my drug usage. I was on methadone only concerning opioids and on a steady dose of clonazepam until recently. So it's not really hard to hide usage of a syrup and some pills. I split-dose so I carry some methadone in a 200ml bottle and a 10ml syringe when I need to dose (either in my backpack or in the pocket of my jacket) + a leaf of clonazepam pills in my wallet.

Now only my mum, my closest family, and some of my friends (but only some of those I've known when I started shooting up morphine from ampoules) know that I have to keep on taking methadone because I can't taper down to 0. I don't tell anyone new I meet that I used to do a shitload of opioids and benzos (although I've had a terrible time lately and went back on shooting up, anyway I've got a lot of methadone collected so it's not a problem to jump on it and I'm lowering doses of drugs I inject i.v.).

If I met someone who would become really important to me, I wouldn't really tell the whole story of my addiction even if I still stayed on methadone at the time. Well, I manipulated a lot of people and I learned there's good manipulation (I helped quite a few people using manipulation) and bad manipulation. I don't think it's really best to be 100% honest about this damned addiction unless you're not sure whether it's impossible for that special one to find out by asking some people. I don't think it's cynical or something, it's rather saving from hurt. I've hurt, many people have hurt, and it's enough.
 
All of my close friends know and most use as well. I don't tell acquaintances or co workers or anyone else, but then again, I don't tell anyone I'm not close to anything about myself really, so my drug use isn't more or less secret than anything else. The only family members I've told are my dad and one of my cousins.
 
I want to honest all the time, but sometimes it's just better not to tell people about it.
 
1 Friend knows about my recent meth usage. All of my friends know about my pain killer usage, and so do my family. They also know I'm constantly in pain though, so they're understanding of it.
 
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