How much Methadone should I take my 1st time??

[JJ1986]

I'm new to Bluelight and have been battling an opiate addiction (along with alcoholism & smoking weed everyday) for over 10 years now. I was always told growing up that addiction runs thick in my blood but I didn't listen to them until it was too late!! ..I had all 4 of my wisdom teeth removed when I was 19 years old and at that point in my life I had no clue that a script a doctor gave me would fuck me up. At that point in my life I was just drinking and smoking bud. It wasn't until I went to work a few days after the surgery and an older lady saw how swollen my cheeks were and told me "Oh honey look at you...you poor thing here have some of my happy pills" and handed me about 15 10 mg Percocets. That was the beginning of what has been the hardest battle I've ever tried to fight. I waitressed my way through college and never had any issues with getting enough percs & paying my bills because I always had cash. When I met my current BF he was 100% against pills and never messed around with them because his brother was addicted to heroin and he saw first hand how this shit can ruin your life. Whenever I would do a pill he would know immediately and freak out on me. But he was no angel...he loved coke and beer so we made a deal...If I didn't bitch about him doing coke he wouldn't bitch about me doing pills. That lasted a while but for some reason he started wanting to do a pill here and there. Fast forward to the Summer of 2012 and we are both completely addicted to pills doing them every single day. We both work 2 jobs but we are completely broke all the time and bills are never paid on time. A year later the only thing that has changed is the amount of pills we need to do every day to keep from being sick. Every time we say this shit has got to stop it never does. We get text messages constantly from our friends either asking where anythings at or do we need anything which makes it even more difficult to stop. I know that just one phone call will end the pain I'm in and I cannot control myself to not make that call. I tried the Suboxone clinic and it worked great for about 2 months but I could not afford to stay in the program. I'm currently on a wait list to get into a Sub doctor that takes insurance. A friend of mine gave me 90 ml of methadone the other day to help me out but I am not sure how much I should take. If I need at least 3 perc 30s to keep from getting sick how much methadone should I take?? I took a very very small sip (about 10 ml or so) this morning before work because I was afraid that it would be too strong and I would be acting funny at work and my boss would know but it did not do much. It did keep me from feeling sick which is good but it didn't give me the high that everyone says it does. Does anyone know exactly how much I should take?? Any suggestions are appreciated!!

 

[phatass]

Over here, with a habit of 90mg oxy/day they would start you off with 30mg methadone approx, and you work your way up to a dose that will keep the W/D fully at bay...

Why are you going methadone and not subs, may i ask?

Also the point methadone and subs, is not to get high/ mood lift/ euphoria, but to stop W/D, cut the cravings and cycle of addiction, the going up and down on shorter acting opiates and more, you seem motivated to get yourself out of the hellhole of opiate addiction, hoppe your partner has the same intention, coz if he's still getting high it will be way harder for you and likely cause problemsin your relationship...

best of luck, it can be done!