Yo man. I hope you're doing alright. I'll throw my hat in the ring here. You're young. I'm sure you've seen some shit. I started using Heroin when I was 16 and I was a serious addict by 18. I used all drugs including Alcohol. I have insufflated, injected and smoked Cocaine.
As you know, not all drugs are equal in their impact on a person's health and well-being. Cocaine is a drug for which the route of administration greatly impacts how the drug affects the user. Smoking and injecting... you might as well just jump off a cliff right now and save yourself the pain of years living on the street, getting gawked at and laughed at by people who look at you as human garbage. You're not gonna be allowed in stores like a normal person. Society will exclude you completely. It's just gonna be you and your Cocaine.
It will take everything from you. After that, it's gonna start taking things from you that you didn't even realize could be taken from a person, like your mind, your thoughts and your soul.
I was thrown in county jail for 27 days when I was maybe 19. I had no help. No medicine. I just laid on a steel slab, getting up intermittently to puke or shit or scan the room one more time for something I could use to kill myself. Would I have sucked dick for Heroin? Please, I would have prayed for the very opportunity to degrade myself for relief.
That drug will take you to a place where you look back on the days that you worked as a rent boy with fond memories because now you're so dirty and hideous you can't even prostitute yourself.
You'll eventually end up in jail for 3 months for doing something stupid for money. You'll eat, get healthy, your family will start talking to you, you'll find God, then you'll be released and immediately relapse on Cocaine without even a second though. After all, you've been using it for years by this point and it will probably take 6 months to a year of constant sobriety before your brain resets to the point you're able to put basic thoughts together without Cocaine cravings getting in the way.
You're 18. You've got your whole life ahead of you dude. Don't you want to meet a nice chick? Don't you want her to respect you? You will never have love in your life of any kind, romantic, platonic whatever, if you're injecting Cocaine. You just become a machine whose prime directive is to find and consume Cocaine.
You have an opportunity to prevent this. You don't even need to stop using drugs necessarily, though given your personality, it's likely that you're going to be faced with that decision at some point. Stop injecting Cocaine. Stop using Cocaine altogether, because if you have it, you're going to inject it, period. If you need a stimulant, take an Adderall or something.
Cocaine will take everything from you. If you continue using it, expect complete destruction. Every time you inject, you're letting it sink it's hooks in further.
If you want to talk, I am available.
