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How many times have you heard "Im only gonna try it once"?

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This goes for you yourself, and from other ppl. I know a million people who have said this . Im mainly focusing on opiates here but I am sure other ppl can relate. this thread is about addiction tho, and wat it does to you. I ve heard it so many fucking times. Im just gonna try it once. Im just gonna do dope once. Im just gonna sniff it once. Im just gonna shoot it once.

Always, without fail, we all know how it ends up. I always say, Ok. Well, call me in 6 months and let me know how that worked out for you.

Me , I had a plan, we all had a plan at some point, we all said, Well, Im pretty good at telling when Im going too fast, I know when to slow down, I got good willpower, I know when to take a break. And we all do.

But u know wat?

The point comes, the time will be there, when it aint IF you got the willpower not to do it. its that YOU DONT FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.

And THATS when you get deep in this shit.

ive seen it on this message board, too many times to count, prolly hundreds. People when i was on here back in 03, who was against all opiates, who is full on heroin junkies now. People who just registered this year and talk about how they love oxys but aint gonna do dope, and they gonna try dope once but not keep doin it, and they do dope a couple days a week but only when they cant get oxys, and they only do dope now cuz its better but theyll never shoot, and they only wanna shoot once jus tto see how it feels but not again, and really its OK becuz they cant shoot them self up, so as long as they aint got a buddy to shoot for them, they will be safe from every day use, and all a sudden they figure out how to pop the vein and register a shot on their own, and there you have it the making of a dopefeen.

So, How many of your friends have said this? Relateives? Aqaintences? People you are freinds/friendly with on here on bluelight?

How many times have you heard this, And how many times was it really true?

Have you EVER known a person to say it, and have it be the truth?

Its a slippery slope yall........I pray for the ones that is tryin new and better ways of doin dope every day, cuz I know wat lies ahead for them.

And they always say, dont judge me, just becuz you was a fuck up dont mean that Im gonna be, you just wait and see, youll see Ill show you, I aint gonna be like you, i aint gonna be like them! Im really gonna stick to it! youll see, Ill show you!

E.v.e.r.y.t.i.m.e...................
 
I said it right before I IV'd the old dopetrain for the first time. My first thought after the plunger went down was "I see how people get addicted to this stuff."

Now I'm in rehab. Oh boy oh boy.

And they always say, dont judge me, just becuz you was a fuck up dont mean that Im gonna be, you just wait and see, youll see Ill show you, I aint gonna be like you, i aint gonna be like them! Im really gonna stick to it! youll see, Ill show you!
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I see this all the time on this board. It used to bother me quite a bit, but if people don't want to heed the warning that others put out there, then that shits on them.

It's like the people that have been registered for 3-4 months and are all pro-heroin. Being all hardass "I'll never get addicted, I have complete control over everything, I won't compromise" hahaha. See how far it gets them...I know where it got me.
 
I dont say wise words all that much, but in a deep heroin haze drivin late night on the Jersey highway, Route 3, Lights of the city shimmerin on the horizon I turned to my man and said...

You know wat I finally realized about the dope game?

The most important fuckin thing, aint wat you do know....its wat you DONT know......

and wat you finally find out later down the line....
 
I was into iv'ing and IM'ing ketamine.. . i had smoked heroin once a while back while tripping on a combo of things.. i smoked it once more.. much later someone i know was hellbent on smoking crack and brown all the time.. he seemed to think it'd be a good idea to IV the heroin since he heard about me IVing k. he thought it'd be much more effective..

i smoked heroin about 3 times with him.. but all given to me free and me deciding i'd do it those times.. i decided to have no contact with him anymore and not to smoke heroin again.. i stopped the k about a month and a bit ago anyway (the shooting atleast).. and i don't have any desire to go and do any more heroin.. he's turned into a wreck (well much more of one..also much more lies and smell lol.)

everytime people said to him how he was going to end up that way he got angry and said you are judgemental! and he always talks about it now like yeah i gotta sort my habbit abit and yeah back on my habbit just doing my habbit a different way.. blah blah blah..

thing is he was scum before any drugs ever met him.. so maybe he's better off in a junkie bubble.. aslong as he is far away from me.
 
I think everyone says that at first...I know I did with heroin. I tried it then stayed off it for a good period of time, then suddenly craved it and went downhill from there...
 
^lacey your posts have been on fire and full of epic win lately.

And I've heard the titular "once" so fucking many times it's not even worth noting anymore. I always have told my friends that it basically amounts to a cliche that every junkie has said it. And nobody pays me any mind. and some of those that didn't are raging heroin addicts now. It's interesting in a snakry, ironic, detached, Schadenfreude sort of way. It really is cliche and when you see a cliche played out in real life, 8o ... yea say no more. Sad, ultimately and really, of course, but there's a sense of order in the universe ...
 
If I had a dime (bag) for every time I heard this I'd never be sick:) I refuse to ever help anyone shoot who hasn't shot before. The one and only time it happened it was my old best friends little brother and he promised he'd never do it again, he was scared of needles, blah blah blah he just "wanted to see what all the excitement was about." Fast forward a couple months and he's in jail because he broke into his brother's coffee shop to get money for dope. Lesson learned.
 
I never heard I'm gonna try it only once, but I have heard "just one last time" a few times. Not specifically (or ever TBH) about heroin though.
 
Heard it a million times....I know I said that nearly every time I tried something new, not just with drugs either.

When I did coke for the first time, I was only gonna do it that one time, to see what all the hype was about. I also wanted to sell it, so I told myself I should know what it was like in order to not look like an idiot when I tried to slang it....well I ended up splitting a ball with a friend that first night, instead of the 1 or 2 lines I had planned on. After that I was blowing lines everyday for a couple years.
When I tried Acid, I thought I would only do it once to see what tripping was all about. My drug addict ass ended up re-dosing and tripping for wayy to long, and tripped pretty regularly for the rest of the summer.
When I smoked crack for the first time, I was just going to try it for that first day, while my dad was giving me some for free. I told myself that as long as I never actually bought crack myself that I wouldn't be able to get addicted. HA! What a fucking joke. For the next year I had a set schedule- 3 day binge, and then a 2 day recovery/sleep, repeat....I'm sure some of you can relate lol
After I got clean and went to college, I ended up doing some DXM, and told myself it was 'ok' just this once, because it wasn't a 'real' drug lol. Well it was real enough that I started doing almost a gram a night, until I ODed 3 times and eventually got expelled.
The first time I did Heroin I wanted to jsut try it once, to see if there was really any big difference between dope and OCs....Ended up hooked on it(this was only snorting). A few months later a friend came over and convinced me to try IVing just once to see what the big deal was all about. I told myself I didn't like needles, and would never shoot up myself (as he did it for me the first time)...shit now am I not only addicted to H, I'm addicted to the needle, and would even shoot saline if I couldn't score any drugs.
Besides drugs, I remember saying I'm never gonna do this again the first time I had sex without a condom. I eventually only used them when dealing with some skank ass girls I didn't really know too well at parties. I was even dumb enough to not pull out half the time, because it felt good to just bust....I can be such a fucking idiot sometime.
There are some other 'only this once' stories, but I'm not about to do a bunch of self incrimination right now.

That was just my story, but I've heard it from everyone else who has gotten into drugs, and read it here all the time on BL. Always makes me chuckle when people think they can shoot dope just once, or hit a stem just once. Are these people fucking crazy? I've even offered people $1000 before we scored if they could take a ringer and then walk away from the pile of hard in front of them. Not one person has ever done it, not even when offered a bunch of cash. Kinda sad actually. Nobody ever wakes up and decides to become a basehead or a junkie, but hey it happens.

Thanks for the thread Lacey
 
I remember hitting the meth bong with some dudes. I was invited by a friend who was into meth. I had only done meth once or twice before this sesh. I remember taking that first fat rip of the night and my motor mouth started running on about how this is so great and how it was one of my first experiences but I'm not going to do it that much and then I was stopped by one of the dudes chillin.
I remember him telling me something along the lines of "DUDE, SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU THINK THIS IS "FUN"? YOU THINK THIS IS "COOL"? YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT BRO SO JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP MAN I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT HOW THIS IS YOUR SECOND TIME OR WHATEVER. YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE. IF YOU DON'T GET OUT NOW YOUR A FUCKING IDIOT".

It was pretty harsh as I didn't even know the dude and he was sitting right next to me smoking as well. But it was a good talking to. I only did end up doing meth a couple of times though but I still think about it from time to time. Like thinking about that one amazing ex girlfriend or boyfriend.

I never say only once any more because I know I'm just lying to myself and anyone else I say it to. Your actions will speak louder than your words. If you end up only doing it once, then you've said it best.
 
Good thing he spoke to you like that.. it's things like that.. that let the people who do just try it a few times and not go onto the needle that really manage to stay that way when they think of those loved ones or those scary real life realisation shoved in their faces..

Some people aint so lucky.. some people are but still choose the hedonism.

Some people just FUCKED lol. =[

Always do what you can!
 
^ Yep, I am very thankful he yelled at me that night. I had a few other experiences with meth, or rather the people who used it, that showed me what it was all about. I'm glad I didn't have to find out for myself. I think that is a very real danger when trying drugs with friends who are first timers themselves. Neither of you can see the warning signs and both (or more) are much more likely to sink together.

I think it was when I was sitting in Las Vegas after having been up for quite a while in a room with a mattress, a blow torch and little bits of pipes that had popped after being cooled too fast, and nothing else that I decided that this is not the lifestyle that I wanted to pursue.
 
lacey k said:
I dont say wise words all that much, but in a deep heroin haze drivin late night on the Jersey highway, Route 3, Lights of the city shimmerin on the horizon I turned to my man and said...

You know wat I finally realized about the dope game?

The most important fuckin thing, aint wat you do know....its wat you DONT know......

and wat you finally find out later down the line....
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Truer word have rarely been spoken. I felt this way after I got hooked on dope. I used to say that I would never get addicted and that I'm just addiction proof. Now when people say that shit to me it just irritates the fuck outta me and I feel like shaking the shit outta them. But the truth is that they are ignorant about this stuff and will find out for themselves soon enough. People just don't want to believe others and feel that they are better than everyone else when it comes to addiction. I definitely have been humbled in a way through my addiction.

The thing that also irritates the shit outta of me is people who say they are addicted to oxy but would never do heroin. It's the same fucking thing and stronger probably cuz its not cut.
 
You don't even want to say "i told you so" when all is in full swing because you just feel sorry for the bugger for not listening in the first place and choosing emptiness.
You have to say goodbye.
 
I know I said only once with coke, but I ended up having huge problems with that. Also said the same with meth, but did it a handful of times in the next 8-10 months after the first time. Haven't done it in about a year and a half though. I may have said it with heroin, but I can't quite remember. Either way I did not do it only once, but have never been addicted. I told myself I'd only shoot up once, but my first shot (4mg dilaudid) didn't get me high so 10 minutes later I took a shot of 4mg dilaudid and maybe 50 mg cocaine and it still had little effect on me, and I haven't IV'd since, so I feel like i pretty much kept my word when it came to IV'ing
 
The main problem is all these drugs are not going anywhere they have like 60 years with a post it note left on your brain even if you never take them more than a couple times it's always a possibility of a path that may have never been post-it noted onto your brain otherwise!
 
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