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How many people want/plan on dying "young" ?

When I was extremely heavily taking drugs, I used to live by that mantra of burning out and not fading away.

But as I've aged, and acquired wisdom and progressed in my life, i've realized age isn't a given to just fading away. I've achieved more, and plan on achieving more. And dying young is just not on my agenda anymore.

I have more things to do, see and experience; but when I was using so heavily, drugs stopped me experiencing life. Balls to dying young, nothing wrong with aging and seeing what life has next. :)
 
I'm 25 now and was a heavy alcoholic and gambler, at times I still become the alcoholic I don't want to be but any how that's not what's relevant to this story.

Same time last year I had gambled a 7k bet and was by the edge of a cliff wanting to end my life. This followed a series of events though, mostly after winning close to 20k and then winning more and drinking more, well the depression and anxiety kicked in harder then ever and I couldn't take it any more and so I thought ending it was the best option. Any how it's quite sad to think I was going to leave behind an uncompleted masters degree and my family behind. Yeah my family are hard at times but that's because they only know how to care a certain way. That's how they learnt and this is what I must respect.

Well today I am here and my masters degree is near complete. Next year in July I will be away holidaying as my degree gets finished and then I come back and look for employment whilst hopefully trying to start up something as well.

The experience of suicide which has cursed me a few times, mostly it ending the same way. I lose a lot and plan in advance that, that day will be the day has actually brought me to witness that there is a strong character within me and with this recognition I contemplate what beautiful things can I do for myself.

It's not too hard if you acknowledge that there is another way and you change your perspective to more than a one sided approach.
 
Life is precious and it really saddens me that anyone would want to die young.
Part of my view of the afterlife/this physical life is that in the afterlife, we do not have the same senses as we do now. That is why I try to appreciate every day.
I don't have an easy life by any means- but it could be a whole hell of a lot worse.
I try to remember and appreciate the simple things in life- like the taste of my favorite foods, the touch of my husband, the feel of a soft blanket or the grass in my fingers when I lay in the yard- The beauty in Nature around me-
The sound of the ocean, or a river rushing......
The smell of firewood burning in people's houses
on a cold evening- The smell of the seasons.......
We won't get to enjoy these things after we have died and they are beautiful.
Life is a gift and while you may feel like your gift is a bit of a let down- Simplify your thinking.
Try to view life basically and leave the woe is me to the side.
(I'm not trying to say anyone here is wallowing in self pity..... Everyone has problems. It is good to sometimes, mentally set them aside and see life for what it is) <3


"Life is simple, it's just not easy." ~Author Unknown

"The tragedy of life is not so much what men suffer, but rather what they miss." ~Thomas Carlyle


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ocean said:
Life is precious and it really saddens me that anyone would want to die young.
Part of my view of the afterlife/this physical life is that in the afterlife, we do not have the same senses as we do now. That is why I try to appreciate every day.
I don't have an easy life by any means- but it could be a whole hell of a lot worse.
I try to remember and appreciate the simple things in life- like the taste of my favorite foods, the touch of my husband, the feel of a soft blanket or the grass in my fingers when I lay in the yard- The beauty in Nature around me-
The sound of the ocean, or a river rushing......
The smell of firewood burning in people's houses
on a cold evening- The smell of the seasons.......
We won't get to enjoy these things after we have died and they are beautiful.
Life is a gift and while you may feel like your gift is a bit of a let down- Simplify your thinking.
Try to view life basically and leave the woe is me to the side.
(I'm not trying to say anyone here is wallowing in self pity..... Everyone has problems. It is good to sometimes, mentally set them aside and see life for what it is) <3


"Life is simple, it's just not easy." ~Author Unknown

"The tragedy of life is not so much what men suffer, but rather what they miss." ~Thomas Carlyle


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great post, ocean.
-izzy
 
I never wanted to nor planned to die young. An outsider looking in would probably have a different take on that though. I am going to be 34 in a month, fuck. The last 2 years I have been trying to get clean, the last year actually doing it. Shot dope for a decade and was a poly drug addict since gosh real young. I have had alot of friends I grew up with die [last count was 13 or 14 from heroin alone] and I suppose that is just life when living that lifestyle.

I am just lucky that I still have avenues and options available to me, still. Alot of people I know are not so lucky. It is too easy for me to say fuck this I am just going to shoot dope and die, total cope out. The mindset when drug addled is much different though. Yet when getting clean everything just seems so bland and contrived and being use to that life of thrills, pills, and chills can make it hard to adjust to reality. Great day today though, in the 80's. Sunny perfect fall day. I am going to go ride my bike into town and go get some food at some festival that is going on [Scarecrow Festival].

peace.
seedless

peace.
seedless
 
I used to be scared of death, but now with all the shit I've went through i couldn't care less what happens to me. Some people like me just weren't meant to have a good, happy and stable life. We all die in the end, its just we don't know when.
 
I don't want to or plan on dying young. After enduring 6 years of opiate addiction I kind of became apathetic towards life and death. I finally got relatively clean and the zest for life is coming back and their is just so much to experience in life that it would suck if I died. Opiate addiction showed me how strong I am, some day's still suck but it's getting better slowly.
 
with my lifestyle and family history, i;d be lucky to make 40. one of the reasons i opened this thread is because im not sure whether or not i still want to be alive. i have one person in my life and she is the only reason i havent put a bullet in my head
 
what ive read it rediculous yet i know exactly what most are going threw .
I went threw it and at 21 i tried to kill myself and for some reason it didnt work i took a whole bottle of pills thaa should have killed me went to bed and next thing ya know i wake up feelin great no hangover no headache nuthin.
I remember my mom bein drunk phoning the hospital and then trying to get me to drink this shit coctail that was supposed to make me puke and after one sip i said id rather die and went to bed.
when i woke up and felt so good i promissed myself i would never try and take my life again.
I tell you after all the depression and shit i have gone threw in my life i kept that promiss ,though i will say i prayed many a night to gawd please just let me die in my sleep but it never came and now im 43 living in probably the worste conditions i have ever lived in and still to this day pray for death in my sleep at times,
but then theres those good days and ya feel great.
Thats what keeps ya going ,that and unlike most people i remember my dreams and though i would have to say its about 50/50 the good dreams are good and i wake up feeling good and try and work with it...
Not much more i can say cept that people its normal for most to feel the way ya do i know i did.
I never wanted to reach 30 ,but here i am 43 ,luckily i look about 30 but thats not the point.
just live bad or good ,just live ,,,
 
i've always felt the same when i think about the idea of getting old: exhausted. the idea of being alive a long time just requires so much energy. i really really never anticipated living as long as i have done and i'm glad i'm still alive but the idea of getting old depresses me.
 
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