Bojangles69
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This is perhaps by biggest hangup against opiates as stupid as it sounds, but opiates for me trigger INTENSE hypersomnia.
I almost miss not being able to sleep for 2 weeks straight when I was tapering because now I feel like I'm asleep all day.
THIS is precisely whats ruining my life and I think I've spoke about it before.
But tapering down will aggravate the hypersomnia I noticed (because I'm both in wds and oversleepy from higher doses) to an extent, then after I always pass a certain point (50gms) I can wake up in the mornings again.
Now I'm around 100gms and I keep bouncing my dose to stablize (as weird as it sounds I'm just listening to my body really and giving it whatever it needs for wds) and today I woke up at 1:30pm. Had gone to bed at 3am the night before. But get this, I wake up crawl over to the sofa, lay down in this weird state where I'm half awake and half alseep and it seems like I must stay in the state for an hour or before I really wake up. But I didn't actually get up and start moving around till 3:30 today.
Its a fucking shame and I hate myself when I oversleep like this, but I almost can't avoid it cause I'm a selfish drug addict.
Anyway everytime I taper down I get slammed with wds, but its the sleep that I really can't stand. I don't really care about wds but is there anything I can do to stop this hypersomnia? Just to make it easier to get down to 50gms?
I have no idea how you people hold addictions and jobs down at the same time. The only reason I'm getting by now is I just go to school parttime and am holding down a small but lucrative business. But because my body always feels like it needs enormous amounts of sleep, getting to bed by midnight is impossible. I don't understand how to trick my body or get myself headed back in the right direction. But this sleep crap has been going on so long that its driving me crazy. I'm not depressed but another few months of the shit and I'm bound to get there soon enough.
But are our bodies just all different? Is this a sign at 28 that my body has just taken on too much abuse? I read that smoking also aggravates hypersomnia so I'm thinking I will cut back and see what happens, but I definitely believe its the pods thats the cuplrit. I also had this issue on suboxone too there was NO WAY I was waking up before noon no matter what.
How do you people tolerate this lifestyle? How do you maintain your lives on opiates? I see some of you people holding down fulltime jobs, using more than I am, and I don't understand HOW you are able to do that. Did you not really have any severe addictions before opiates? Because I'm sure my past amphetamine abuse prob predisposed me in someway... but got I don't think you could possibly understand how subhuman it feels to wake up, just to go lay on a couch, body stiff, hot flashes cause I basically sleep right into wds now, I don't know how to deal with this sleep issue anymore.
I'm tapering down but its hard.
I almost miss not being able to sleep for 2 weeks straight when I was tapering because now I feel like I'm asleep all day.
THIS is precisely whats ruining my life and I think I've spoke about it before.
But tapering down will aggravate the hypersomnia I noticed (because I'm both in wds and oversleepy from higher doses) to an extent, then after I always pass a certain point (50gms) I can wake up in the mornings again.
Now I'm around 100gms and I keep bouncing my dose to stablize (as weird as it sounds I'm just listening to my body really and giving it whatever it needs for wds) and today I woke up at 1:30pm. Had gone to bed at 3am the night before. But get this, I wake up crawl over to the sofa, lay down in this weird state where I'm half awake and half alseep and it seems like I must stay in the state for an hour or before I really wake up. But I didn't actually get up and start moving around till 3:30 today.
Its a fucking shame and I hate myself when I oversleep like this, but I almost can't avoid it cause I'm a selfish drug addict.
Anyway everytime I taper down I get slammed with wds, but its the sleep that I really can't stand. I don't really care about wds but is there anything I can do to stop this hypersomnia? Just to make it easier to get down to 50gms?
I have no idea how you people hold addictions and jobs down at the same time. The only reason I'm getting by now is I just go to school parttime and am holding down a small but lucrative business. But because my body always feels like it needs enormous amounts of sleep, getting to bed by midnight is impossible. I don't understand how to trick my body or get myself headed back in the right direction. But this sleep crap has been going on so long that its driving me crazy. I'm not depressed but another few months of the shit and I'm bound to get there soon enough.
But are our bodies just all different? Is this a sign at 28 that my body has just taken on too much abuse? I read that smoking also aggravates hypersomnia so I'm thinking I will cut back and see what happens, but I definitely believe its the pods thats the cuplrit. I also had this issue on suboxone too there was NO WAY I was waking up before noon no matter what.
How do you people tolerate this lifestyle? How do you maintain your lives on opiates? I see some of you people holding down fulltime jobs, using more than I am, and I don't understand HOW you are able to do that. Did you not really have any severe addictions before opiates? Because I'm sure my past amphetamine abuse prob predisposed me in someway... but got I don't think you could possibly understand how subhuman it feels to wake up, just to go lay on a couch, body stiff, hot flashes cause I basically sleep right into wds now, I don't know how to deal with this sleep issue anymore.
I'm tapering down but its hard.