Despite my years of opiate abuse, ranging from lots of dilaudid, to lots of morphine, lots of heroin, all the way to lots of oxymorphone, I have NEVER INJECTED!
I have absolutely no problems with needles (i used to get 5x allergy shots per week, as well as help give my dad his insulin injections; i know neither is IV but the needle point is valid) or getting blood drawn; i know i COULD do it, very easily. And I have lots of clean rigs in my house for my dad.
Part of me wants to, desperately. So desperately in fact that the last time I slipped up and someone got me a stamp of skag, I had a syringe in one hand and a cotton in the other, my hands trembling so much so that I probably wouldn't have been able to do it even had i tried.
But, i'm already SUCH AN ADDICT and I never inject. I"ve done a lot of what injecting drug users have done to get their drugs, except i DONT inject. So I can only imagine how much worse off I'd be if i did start slamming.
Hygiene would go out the window pretty rapidly I'd assume, and I can only imagine what my arms/veins/body would look like at the end after I stopped giving a shit about "being clean".
I want that rush SO BAD, but I am already SUCH an addict, and have done such terrible things already. i cant imagine what i'd be like if i made it any worse on myself. But I want to sooooo bad, and I inch closer every time I slip, despite trying to move away from drug abuse