^^ No your not, I can control my smoking and have done so for 6 years so there, that takes more self control so im better than you! heh
I go into phases, they are weird though, when ive been smoking a lot of pot I will go days without smoking and not even realize it, when I havent been doing many drugs at all then I might smoke3-6 smokes a day but when Im on an opiate/meth binge especially IV then I will easily go through a pack or more a day and often make myself sick(chest infection usually)
I never really got addicted to cigarettes like most of my friends and family and ive maybe bought 5 packets in 2008, I just get them off my sister or mother and they dont mind so its obviously not a problem. Its always been drugs that get me high that have been a problem and the cigarettes do make the opiate and meth high much better so im smoking them to make something else feel better not because I want the actual cig. Smokes are pretty disgusting when I think about them sober, I hate it when people smell like smoke and nicotine, its yuck, go have a shower.
Its funny though because on the rare occasion ill have a 20-25 pack of smokes and they will last me 4 days even after giving a few out and my friends cant believe their eyes, a pack lasts them a day sometimes half a day so I believe a have pretty good control with the legal drugs, ive never had a problem with drinking although ive had many opportunities to and its in my family blood to be an alcoholic although only a few of the not so close family members are alcos.
ill shut up now
