True story to all those following the previous posts: I've rolled in a 6 month span every week, sometimes a couple days a week. I've double-popped and have taken up to 5 at a rave. I've taken 8 in two days (4 each). I've rolled 3 days consecutive, or attempted to roll the last day, but didn't feel anything (serotonin died out, I guess). After the 6 months, I've rolled probably 4 more times, 2 pills max. In total, I have taken over 100, maybe even 150. It's been exactly a year since my last one. These are merely the facts of my rolling experience.
Fact: I am beginning to feel my brain recovering from all those symptoms you guys were describing and feel that the end is nearing. Though I can operate fine and talk to people without making them think any differently (although there is a slight lull in my response time and my thoughts take a few seconds to thoroughly plan out) under the current circumstances, there are a few cognitive impairments that should be gone in about a year, or so I'm sensing lol. The key to recovery is not to think about it, however hard that may be because sometimes your brain isn't listening, and just focus on the next step of your life. What's the point of thinking about the past when there's NO WAY IN HELL you can change it. Marinate on that. Most positive things you should be doing right now are: simply reading more, which will help a lot, exercise more often (like run; by doing so, your mind will continuously be occupied with running and not with churning out sad thoughts), watch more comedies and comedians, stop being so f*king emo, stop thinking about who you used to be, but how you will adapt with your newly found changes and learn to never do this kinda sh*t again. Once you realize that, there's your first positive lesson from this drug ordeal, with many more to come. You will also surely appreciate life more, which would've never occurred to you if you never had any drug-induced damage done to your brain. Think of it as an adventure you're taking with your brain and learn to adapt to upcoming obstacles, and yes, it will recover. You definitely won't get any more stupid. Give it a year, maybe even two, but why not 10? You're still going to live your life so don't think about the amount of years it's going to take; you're going to face them anyway. Adapt, learn, and fuck all the bitches you can.
