pally pete
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interesting thread as i was going to ask the same question.
although my benzo abuse was embarrassingly high to the point that i count myself lucky to be alive!
it began as a once in a while thing only when i was flying,maybe 40 mg diazepam or 3-4 mg alprazolam,for anywhere between a 4-12 hour flight (im petrified of flying) then around april 2009 i began taking 10 mg diazepam once per week,then around september 2009 i began using recreationally,just once per week (at weekends) but the doseage was upped to anywhere between 20-30 pills of a variety of benzos (alprazolam,bromazepam,diazepam,lorazepam,clonazepam,temazepam,midazolam,nitrazepam)
this continued,but gradually (and predictably) increased in the quantity of benzos i was taking,by chistmas to at least 50 pills (i used to keep a blog of what id taken and when) yet i was still only using once per week at weekends,then into the new year i continued increasing the doseage as my tolerance began to go through the roof,i was still using just at weekends but was now taking 100+ pills which eventually ended up with me taking over 300+ pills each weekend in a 24-36 hour period!
then i was off work sick (unrelated to my benzo use) for some weeks over the summer,due to being stuck at home bored i began taking benzos daily,although only about 30 pills a day but during this time i also began to use opiates (oxycontin).
then about 7 weeks ago i realised what a mess i had become and how id lived the past 10 months in a haze,so i decided to stop taking everything completely,i was aware of the horror stories people talked about when quiting using benzos but to be honest after 7 weeks of not touching anything ive been ok apart from a few weeks of insomnia,derealisation and some twitching.
how long for my tolerance to drop? will it be years,or maybe never due to my chronic abuse?
although my benzo abuse was embarrassingly high to the point that i count myself lucky to be alive!
it began as a once in a while thing only when i was flying,maybe 40 mg diazepam or 3-4 mg alprazolam,for anywhere between a 4-12 hour flight (im petrified of flying) then around april 2009 i began taking 10 mg diazepam once per week,then around september 2009 i began using recreationally,just once per week (at weekends) but the doseage was upped to anywhere between 20-30 pills of a variety of benzos (alprazolam,bromazepam,diazepam,lorazepam,clonazepam,temazepam,midazolam,nitrazepam)
this continued,but gradually (and predictably) increased in the quantity of benzos i was taking,by chistmas to at least 50 pills (i used to keep a blog of what id taken and when) yet i was still only using once per week at weekends,then into the new year i continued increasing the doseage as my tolerance began to go through the roof,i was still using just at weekends but was now taking 100+ pills which eventually ended up with me taking over 300+ pills each weekend in a 24-36 hour period!
then i was off work sick (unrelated to my benzo use) for some weeks over the summer,due to being stuck at home bored i began taking benzos daily,although only about 30 pills a day but during this time i also began to use opiates (oxycontin).
then about 7 weeks ago i realised what a mess i had become and how id lived the past 10 months in a haze,so i decided to stop taking everything completely,i was aware of the horror stories people talked about when quiting using benzos but to be honest after 7 weeks of not touching anything ive been ok apart from a few weeks of insomnia,derealisation and some twitching.
how long for my tolerance to drop? will it be years,or maybe never due to my chronic abuse?
