And IV use causes nasty infections like endocritis where you latterly have to stay in the hospital for a month or longer you can’t go outside cause you have a damn pick line in your arm ewww it makes me cringe thinking about it
Yup, I spent close to 8 months in the hospital in 2017 because of it (18 weeks combined, on 3 separate ocassions, in an LTAC for 6 weeks of IV antibiotics prior to open heart surgery and as an IV addict with a PICC line I wasn’t even allowed to leave my room without a nurse or an escort or they’d immediately call security. It was my own form of prison. The STACs weren’t as strict, though, but there is really nothing available to do there to begin with.)
Absolute insanity, seems like memories from another lifetime at this point.
The only time I was allowed to leave my room was to walk the hall of the floor I was on with a nurse. I couldn’t go outside it was depressing being in there and embarrassing. I learned my lesson.Yup, I spent close to 8 months in the hospital in 2017 because of it (18 weeks combined, on 3 separate ocassions, in an LTAC for 6 weeks of IV antibiotics prior to open heart surgery and as an IV addict with a PICC line I wasn’t even allowed to leave my room without a nurse or an escort or they’d immediately call security. It was my own form of prison. The STACs weren’t as strict, though, but there is really nothing available to do there to begin with.)
Absolute insanity, seems like memories from another lifetime at this point.
Oh trust me, i feel ya. I dont even like speed but ive slammed prolly over 100 times. I used to live in chico, ca, so when in Rome i guess... i found it helpful for dope withdrawls, oddly enough, tho. Other than that it just lasts to damn long... im a junkie by nature, i wanna be underground eating ice cream listening to portishead instead of flying for days, sweaty and paranoid, playing guitar to my fingers bleed, to the delight of the whole trailor park lol. What a dickhead... I wish the coke didnt have that ferocious re-up mentality to it. Its fuckin baffling. I really dont even like it. It makes me so on edge and not myself. Just pure discomfort. I havent done any today and slept in till like 2 (not particularly proud of that one but me and a chef homie were up late cocktailin last night and made this killer pasta dish but we only had weed oil for a fat sooooo yeah do the math on that one) and anyways, i feel fuckin great. I feel like myself. I def could go back to bed rtf now too haha. Yeah man fuck this needle shit, what an odd obsession. I swear its just seeing the robust plume of a perfect hit mushroom into the barrel of a rig with a clear solution in it.... it does something major to my brain man. Maybe thats why i used to rinse the same cottons like 4 times, knowing damn well theyre not gonna do me any good. Haha. What a joke.Hell yeah. OP don't forget, you only get one set of veins. Might as well savor them, and if you do happen to IV once in a blue moon, you might actually succeed and it'll be better than any hit you get whilst furiously jamming yourself.
I still cringe hard and can really feel it when I think about the days when I was bad on it. I have recently picked up the filthy habit again, but am only quickly successful when I use one spot, so I generally only do one (it's ice so the high lasts longer and is less compulsive). Tried to use the main vein in my left arm earlier today in an attempt to rotate spots, and even that guy is a weak little bitch from overuse and destruction from years past. I twitched and pushed through after registration and it still fuckin hurts, although I finagled most of the shot into myself successfully, it still just wasn't really worth all the hype. Might as well have just eaten that tweak for all the good it did.
And I'm a fucking novice when it comes to IV with fuckall for technique, definitely don't wanna graduate to hitting your hands or feet, you'll be out of spots real quickly likely, making it difficult to ever again really achieve that mega rush you so desperately desire.
Sorry if this comes across as a lecture, but I can't stress enough that IV stims will put you on your knees faster than anything (me currently being high on IV stims, loathsome hypocrite that I am). Do as I say, not quite exactly as I do applies.
The only time I was allowed to leave my room was to walk the hall of the floor I was on with a nurse. I couldn’t go outside it was depressing being in there and embarrassing. I learned my lesson.
At first when I got in there i was in ICU I had IV’s in both arms pumping antibiotics Then after two days they moved to PCU where I spent a week then I got moved to a regular room I don’t remember the first week and half I was in there. At first they thought I was going to be in there for 10 weeks and I ended up spending a month a few days but they had to give me the antibiotics through IV.Were IV antibiotics enough or did you require valve replacement, too? Tricuspid valve ?
Man i stretch it to 2 hours and still its not quite the same. I laid off today. Feel great, eating good, seing friends. The addict life is so useless for me. These chems already ran their course and took most of my 20s from me. Its no longer cool and risque and whatever other half baked means of justifying the use it once had. Heroin makes sense. Gotta have it. I gotta tell ya, SLEEP.... HEAVY SLEEP after a coke bender is volumes more euphoric than dope, coke, speed or speedballin. Im equally parts fortunate to hate coke and unfortunate to be fully obsessed. But today, as ive done none. Theres no fiend thing happenimg. I just feel comfortable and tired and i fuckin love it man. Anyone strugglin, please reach out. I dont have the answers but ill chop it up w whomever about whatever cuz just to speak with someone about anything that gets u off that unilateral addict thought process is a major thought shift away from those disastrous habits we hold so dearly. Anyways... fuckin up indian food on a little black market fakout xanax thats hittin harder than tyson in the 80s.. feelin comfortable and the shits not even on my mind.It lasts ~1hr so if I'm doing it and trying to be safe I try and ignore the compulsion to keep doing and wait at least 45 mins as a minimum. I'd recommend 60, though.
Definitely more practical, but that's the same reason i hate shooting meth. Just lasts so fuckin long and that taste.... yarps! At least its so cheap to produce its practically useless to cut... whaddya think gang, time to start up the ol iv meth habit? Haha jkjk. I actually went to my first NA meeting today in damn near a year. Definitely a different vibe than slamming drugs but equally, if not more enjoyable and with almost no come down/withdrawl. Idk if im goin sober but these rigs gotta evaporate before i do.I should add that coke is something I've used recreationally, but I've never been addicted to it or been a daily user. I'll have like a mini-binge over like an evening/night with some friends occasionally is all. It's too expensive and too short-acting for me to be worth it. I prefer amphetamines when it comes to stimulants.
Definitely more practical, but that's the same reason i hate shooting meth. Just lasts so fuckin long and that taste.... yarps! At least its so cheap to produce its practically useless to cut... whaddya think gang, time to start up the ol iv meth habit? Haha jkjk. I actually went to my first NA meeting today in damn near a year. Definitely a different vibe than slamming drugs but equally, if not more enjoyable and with almost no come down/withdrawl. Idk if im goin sober but these rigs gotta evaporate before i do.
I feel like this thread has veered way off its original course, so sorry if anyone cares. I don't, personally, but someone mentioned a sobriety-themed section of blue light.... should I take my ramblings over there? Def tryina baby step back towards a healthy, balanced life and syringes just aren't part of it.
Thanks dudeGood idea. There is a section called Recovery Support with a couple of sub-forums. There are a lot of members in active recovery. In the menu bar at the top of the page hit ‘Forums’ and a list of all the sub-forums will come up.
I used to inject cocaine for quite a while. The only good shot of the day is the first one, after that it’s repetitive insanity. If you’re not injecting every 5 minutes yet, I’d say stop now before you get to that point and save yourself from the worst misery you can imagine.