I've been taking 0.5mg of Klonopin once a day (1/4 of my prescribed dosage), and I'm feeling guilty since I've been maintaining on 2.5mg diazepam once a day on top of that.
I sometimes turn anger into myself and make myself feel guilty, but I have to say, I've been extremely responsible with full bottles of 30 x 2mg Klonopins. I've been taking only a 1/4 of the 2mg tabs instead of popping them whole and getting benzoed out for recreation. I only took ~1-1.5mg the first couple of days, to provide an "attack dose" to thwart my suicidal ideation stemming from seriously intense panic attacks at the time... coincidentally, the day I was prescribed clonazepam, I had the most intense panic attack after a tramautic event,, I felt so trapped, being broke and 22 years old, being homeless scares the shit out of me. My hands were shaking so hard that I could barely open my new rx and cut a 2mg kpin in half.
I have to say, clonazepam and diazepam are fantastic "background" benzos that allow you to think clearly at 0.5mg kpin and 2.5mg diaz, as they're very "subtle." Klonopin accumulates each day you take it, so watch out fo long-acting benzos. If you take it in consistently large doses (>1-2mg/day),it will build up in your plasma and become a bit too depressing due to the body effect, whereas Xanax doesn't induce as much depression. They relieve physical tension way better than the primarily cerebral Xanax, which is not approved for epilepsy or muscle spasms.
I want to get off clonazepam, but I feel like tapering in the middle of a rough patch can send me off the edge and do myself in, so I'll probably do it with diaz/clonaz when things are stable enough.
