MyDoorsAreOpen
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As of 6h from now, it will have been 2wks since I had any marijuana. Before that I was a once or twice daily toker for years. Never thought I'd have to take a long break from it (long story, work related), but am glad I am, because I really did need to clear my head and get reacquainted with my sober self. It's gone surprisingly well after the first week, with one glaring exception -- I have multiple vivid, rather psychologically horrifying nightmares multiple times nightly. Not a single night these past two weeks have I not had to get up and read or do something for a little while in order to forget the frightening images and events that I thought I was just part of. It's not like they have a common theme, even, or any connection I can see to recent stressors or preoccupations in my waking life (which are actually fairly few at the moment). I normally don't remember much of my dreams, but I can recall the plot of at least 3-4 nightmares I've had over the past 2wks right now, and still get goosebumps when I think about them. Others have been more of the frustrated and anguished type, and I've woken up on the verge of real tears. I'm not noticing the problem gradually subsiding either. It's about as bad as it was on day 1, if not worse.
The biggest problem of all this is that my sleep pattern is becoming disrupted, because I'm getting scared to fall asleep. It can take me a good 1~1.5h to nod off, and the past two nights I've spent 2h up at odd hours when I woke up scared, such that I've been tired at odd times during the day.
I should mention that I'm on day 3 of a ketogenic diet to try to shed most of my body's fat and all the cannabis metabolites that were stored in it, for drug teating purposes. I weighed 146# 4d ago. I weigh 139 now. I've had no sedating drugs since the shot of lorazepam I was given involuntarily 2wks ago. I don't really drink alcohol anymore, and can't while I'm in ketosis anyway. I'm on day 5 without any caffeine for the first time in as long as I can remember (don't miss it), and have been on no meds or drugs of any sort for 2wks.
I'll only consider taking something if it won't fuck up my diet and is pretty sure to make the nightmares stop. But what?? 5-htp and diphenhydramine only make dreams more vivid, not less. They're good for falling asleep and stating asleep, but do nothing for the content of it. I can't imagine melatonin would work much better, since this involves the same pathway as taking 5-htp for sleep.
Any ideas?
The biggest problem of all this is that my sleep pattern is becoming disrupted, because I'm getting scared to fall asleep. It can take me a good 1~1.5h to nod off, and the past two nights I've spent 2h up at odd hours when I woke up scared, such that I've been tired at odd times during the day.
I should mention that I'm on day 3 of a ketogenic diet to try to shed most of my body's fat and all the cannabis metabolites that were stored in it, for drug teating purposes. I weighed 146# 4d ago. I weigh 139 now. I've had no sedating drugs since the shot of lorazepam I was given involuntarily 2wks ago. I don't really drink alcohol anymore, and can't while I'm in ketosis anyway. I'm on day 5 without any caffeine for the first time in as long as I can remember (don't miss it), and have been on no meds or drugs of any sort for 2wks.
I'll only consider taking something if it won't fuck up my diet and is pretty sure to make the nightmares stop. But what?? 5-htp and diphenhydramine only make dreams more vivid, not less. They're good for falling asleep and stating asleep, but do nothing for the content of it. I can't imagine melatonin would work much better, since this involves the same pathway as taking 5-htp for sleep.
Any ideas?
