Holy fuck!
Over 5000 or so shots a few times I did too much D (and a few times sniffing as well). That was scary but I basically just blacked out almost immediately. When shooting I passed out before I even realized I had done too much.
Started the day shooting coke because I'm a sex, drugs, and rock roll kind of guy, minus the sex and rock roll. Since I'm missing those components it means the drugs has to pick up the slack.
Anyhow, took a shot then walked my dog. Came back and did another one. It was almost going to be bigger than it was. Shit that was scary. I could barely hear anything, so I'm glad no one tried to talk to me for those few minutes. I couldn't even move. Other than fear and the realization that although I've been completely wasting my life and have contributed nothing positive to the world, I actually don't want to die yet.
The only other thing I could think about was when that doctor in the cocaine episode of History Channels four part series "Hooked Illegal Drugs and How They Got That Way" explains what happens to your heart during a cocaine overdose. I could picture my heart exploding or the ventricles rupturing. I imagined me having a seizure, and even if had immediate medical attention I don't know if they would know it was from coke. IRL I'm much, much more known for heroin, which is an awesome thing to be associated with. Everyone loves an addict.
Man that was scary. It was sort of like a crack bellringer, but slightly different. It was also way more intense than I had anticipated and more intense than any other coke shot I've ever done. I wonder if it would have been better or worse if there had been H mixed in?
So, yeah, I'm high. Managed to stumble over and swallow 0.5mg of Xanax, even though I knew that if I was going to OD it was going to happen way before the Xanax kicked in. Right now I think I'm going to get the always reliably delightful, never scary Mary Jane. Probably should do some heroin too. Drugs, drugs, and drugs - Rock and Roll rock star. By that I mean Crack and Ecstasy rock star. Just minus the talent, and haven't made any contributions to popular culture or any scene whatsoever, and no legions of fans. Actually not even a single fan.
TLDR: Got rambling on there. Shot too much cocaine. It is good coke (and yes I'm aware everyone says their shit is good and every dealer I've ever talked to has "absolute fire") and felt like I was on the verge of ODing. Scared the bejeezus out of me.
Edit:
Zap! Zing! Pow! Wow! Had taken a few hits of good ole herb, shot some heroin, and that 0.5mg Xanax** kicked in. So with that and the fact that it had been at least half hour later I decided to do a speedball. I'm trying not to shoot up a dozen times today so I put in a decent amount of coke, nothing like that big shot though. Followed of course by everyone's favorite heroine; Heroin! So, prep it up and shoot. After about 10 seconds I feel my lips go numb again and sound starts to fade. I started tapping my hand on the table rapidly as I get this rush that is too fucking crazy. Was real strong again, though not as much as the first shot. If I knew ahead of time whether or not I was going to die then there might be more of a chance to enjoy it.
As is clearly demonstrated throughout this post I am a person who learns from his mistakes. I'm pretty sure that the H in there helped it calm down quicker
**I realize for a lot of people that's a small amount of Xanax, but I always start with lower doses of benzos, largely because I am terrified of having to WD from even a mediocre sized habit. Additionally,I abide by this rule which applies to every drug: "You can always take more, but [once it's been consumed] you can never take less." A very important rule that I learned in my early days here on BL Usually just needs to get rid of some generalized, baseline anxiety so I'd rather see if a 0.25mg can get rid of it as opposed to immediately just taking a whole pill (they're 1mg pills)
