Since I've been under this stress i haven't been enjoying opiates and haven't been taking my evening dose and i don't even crave it during the day but since I'm dependent i need to take bit of it. Maybe when i get back on fent I'll feel better.
But, tonight i had one glass of wine and 60mg oxy. 60mgs is very low for me so know worries on that. I rarely ever drink but since i don't have my soma I've needed something to slow me down at night keep me from over thinking, over analysing my current situation and my Grandma's health. The wine actually helps but I'm not looking to make a habbit of it.
My mom and uncle both have wine at night, just a little.. but have been drinking probably a bit more at night because of their mothers illness/my Grandma's illness. We're all so scared.
So I didn't do my normal high dose of oxy, had no desire to. First time in years i'm not craving my oxy. To depressed to enjoy it. If that makes sense. So I'm trying not to waste it. Even though i don't have a lot of them left.
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