It was a really good trip that I had and I resolved a lot in my life and thought things through in the way that I needed to BUT(theres always a but) 2 of my aunties and my grandad came up to my house which is a pigsty, I was tripping at the time ive now had to bring myself down with like 4mg xanax(my dealer was out so he stole pills off his tightass g/f just for me lol shes a bitch so I didnt decline the offer) and 80mg oxycontin, even that isnt doing it, but im really bad trying to act sober when im on acid I cant do it. If I wanted to go for the best feeling high this would be close but I want to look presentable which I dont. That few minutes when I first saw thm and said hello and all that was so, so awkward and I do not wish to repeat that experience. Im pretty sure they know im altered in some way and I have tracks at the moments so I need to keep my arms crossed when im around them(its stupid). So I think by now im probabl mostly ok but theyre going to at least think im stoned, but thats better than thinking ive got schizophrenia or on huge doses of some drug(id say they wouldnt know much about psychedelics.
Anyway well I now know that the acid tabs are clean and strong, both moreso than ive had before. I have to opportunity to go to a rave tonight but I dont have enough cash really, but if someone ends up spotting me a few dollars I might have some 2C-I when the xanax and stuff wears off, a the very least ill be indulging in MDPV tonight. I am very keen to party, id much rather be going to s psy event but raves are ok and I think this 2C-I would be good for
one. Wish me luck on finding my way to this thing tonight

Otherwise I might just have to eat a whole 4 tabs of acid and a MDMA pill and go wild, I think its going to rain and my mind is already completely wrecked from all kinds of drugs today so meh, why not...Bout the only thing id say no to atm is meth uugghh yuck, no more, even when the stuff is pure as anything t still makes me feel so bad. I cant believe people smoke the stuff every day, I have to IV it these days coz smoking just makes me sick for weeks on end, in fact I think I may still be suffering pulmonary stress from an ice binge about a month ago

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I am officially not triping anymore though(I was when I started writing this post) I can get visuals out of some things only a tad, besides I wasnt visually tripping too hard before. But I can a least go down and get some lunch now
