Sober as a judge, have been for over 2 months now.
Still feels odd but...
It's so hard man, I did for a few months in South Florida. Down south in the US on the beach, sub-tropical climate. After 4-5 months, I was sick of hearing any NA, AA or 12-step terminology. Then those that used it most were the ones that constantly relapse then act like they're all-in and ready at meetings I respect it works for certain individuals that can only function stay off all narcotic and mind-altering substances, but I saw a lot of repetitive, hypocritical and relapses in many of these individuals repeatedly.
Mad respect being clean out of your own willpower (which I assumed you'e done Sprout). Be careful of that pink cloud feeling, it can be a trick and after it's gone the PAWS show their ugly faces and your life can become an emotional roller-coaster.
Fortunately, when I'm not being stupid, therapeautic doses of: benzodiazepines, stims (preferably pharm ie lisdexamfetamine, d-amp, d,l-amp or methylone or ora/insuffL m-amp, IV and vaping is too fiendish for me, oral is smooth and has a duration that's smooth), psychs, moderation of alcohol, and daily cannabis use (for depression and anxiety). As long as I keep away from the opiates I'm good, which I haven't been good the past week. I was the week before.
Best of luck keep it up
OT:
Staggered 300mg tramadol; trams are potentiating the heroin and synergizing with the Xanax, making me speed like a mad man and type more than I ever do
+ 350-400mg morphine diacetate I've insuffL + bowls on bowls of this beautiful Blackberry. I'm gonna purchase 12 x 50mg trams for a cheap price, I can see it allowing me to taper my heroin intake quite a bit until I find one more 8mg sub to use for a taper. Once I'm down with this job, I won't be worried about using dope days/weeks in a row. It's THAT miserable. Sober for a week or two, then strung out for a half-week or week.