PerfectDisguise
Bluelighter
Finishing off the last of my beer, and smoking bowls of weed. I'm actually ready to work tomorrow.
good for you leegrow, how'd a do it???
Been awhile, but got surgery tomorrow on my broken wrist/arm, getting a screw put in. Been hitting the opiates quite hard lately. Not much today, but 30mg Oxycodone orally, and 7 Somas. Just got a fresh ass taper fade, kurwa. Been tapering very hard on my BZD's, but I got 2 packages coming tomorrow, so I'll have a buncha zo's on decc!
I need to eventually try and make an attempt at trying R-Modafinil, sounds more fit than D,L-amps. I defintely have very irritating ADD, and stims keep me focused and sped up, but relaxed just fine. Can sleep perfect too the night of dosing that day. Same with crystal m-amp. I need a lisdexamfetamine script (basically XR d-amp purely), it also being my third to methamphetamine and pure d-amp/Dexedrine. It makes a far more functional person and happier because I'm not so anxiously restless out of boredom. Benzos only sooth so much of that but the 'zos + amps completely sooth. Clonaz and lisdexamfetamine is a godsend of a combination.
It's a bitch, innit? Panic attacks / anxiety on its own is awful, getting it from the medication is horrific. I've been on Triazolam for insomnia for quite some time, I'd switch up, but there's nothing that compares in my experience (That will be rx'ed of course ;p). Still got about a week until my refills, but I'll have a few hundred Clonaz-LAM / Flubro-LAM to tide me over soon.. Or put myself right back into where I was I should say, I taper down, it's hell, then I go right back at it. I feel like I can't live without benzos, aside from the seizures and shit, my anxiety feels like straight heart attacks, and when I express this, I get back 'everyone has anxiety'. I know this is true, but I definitely think it's a lot worse for some than others.Gonna taper off these 'zos and get myself on a sleeping med that doesn't cause as much rebound anxiety and/or memory loss. But lord do they help in the moment for back pain, and also anxiety and insomnia and stuff.