90mg hydrocodone + 8mg Lorazepam and all the potentiators I have to go with them, feeling mighty fine. I just discovered that gabapentin lowers blood levels of hydrocodone, so HC is one opiate that gabapentin will not potentiate. Should still work with poppies/morphine.
I awoke at 3:00 AM this morning sober and immediately found my mind state transformed from slight anger and annoyance to a full blown mystical/psychedelic state as if I were in the midst of a powerful +4 level psychedelic trip in the mind. Senses were amazingly sharp and everything felt, looked, and sounded breathtakingly beautiful, getting to the peak within a minute or two. I felt I had complete understanding of the cosmos with an information feed going through my head which seemed to be coming from a mind too vast to comprehend perhaps straight from (the)God('s) and I wanted to share that, but it was something that can't be recorded on or with any available technology. That was frustrating.
Now everything was perfect for ever. Nothing bad could happen. I was wondering if this was happening to others as part of a global or universal shift in consciousness or if it was limited to me. The feeling was one of pure bliss. Knowing it was not a trip, that I was sober, I knew that this time it was all for real. I felt completely liberated from the constraints of life. I could not wait to show my family what had happened, but everyone was sleeping. As soon as they wake, I'll have my mom take me downtown and then I can show her that nothing can hurt me and it is impossible for me to die by leaping out of the window from the fifth or sixth floor of the building and landing safely on my feet.
Now I can be a real life superhero, completely impervious to anything that could do me harm. I also felt that my intellectual capabilities had became super inflated. I felt almost like a god, not able to do literally anything, but with the power to make the world a far happier and beautiful place. I felt I understood the universe fully. After 15-20min, these feelings started to subside and soon I realized it was mostly just I guess a brief manic delusion. For a few more hours, I felt as if something had clicked inside and permanently changed me for the better. Now I am in a very elevated mood. My mood was good before the drugs even though the perfect world I have longed for was again an impossible dream,
Even now I am thinking so much clearer than usual, short term memory seems better and I feel great!
Gonna play with my pet raccoon for a little while then I am going to start preparing for a botany test I have Wed. I sure hope my mood stays elevated for a while.
Glad this didn't happen when I was in a tall building, because I wholeheartedly believed it could not hurt me if I jumped.
Has anyone else had experiences of severely altered consciousness that could not be attributed to the effects or withdrawal of a drug?
i whipped out my vape for the first time in a long while this morning. they're so damn efficient and provide a great high when you've got great weed
