Managed to burn through my oxy supply in 1,5 weeks again. 8(
So, about 48 hours into withdrawal again. This is becoming too much of a habit. The withdrawal part I mean, I'm getting pretty sick (pun intended) of it. Maintaining on some sub, took 4mg SL yesterday evening and snorted 2mg today. It's enough to hold me (as in not be shitting/puking 24/7), but I still got an aweful case of crawling skin and cold sweats, hot flashes. That bullshit.
I wish I liked alcohol more or something. You know, shit you don't need a script for and is easily obtainable. >_< Or nah, I just wish I could lose my taste for drugs in general. Maybe some uppers and tryptamines from time to time, but these withdrawals I'm suffering through on a semi-weekly basis are just not good for my health and spirit.
UGH.
/Rewatching prison break on netflix to at least try to take my mind off this shite. Oh and benzos, a bit too many benzos. Gotta cut that out soon or I'll have a dependency to a serious dose which I really don't want. I'm glad I'm out of lorazepam, I like those suckers too much. Took my last one earlier today. Now I'm 'down to' bromazepam & loprazolam. Waiting to take a loprazolam until it gets dark. I'm thankful I'm atleast able to get some shuteye despite the w/d. Also, the worst part is over. Guess it'll take me a few more days to stabilize on the subs. But my supply is finite. So gotta be a bit careful with howmuch I take.