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its been two days since i had the most intense iv speed rush ever and i'm gradually starting to come down. needless to say i've been wide awake since i IV'd. my daily methadone dose was stronger than usual today , probably because I've not slept. The quality of the dope was great, I'm not "fiending for more" or anything like that. I'm basically just riding it out: I will take my psych meds and attempt sleep tonight. I don't think i'll have a problem catching some zzz's... I think the methadone helped me with the comedown at least a little bit.
 
I smoked a weed and poured myself 20oz squirt soda into an iced mug

Insides don't feel stable enough for beer atm
 
Oh man I'm exhausted. I'm about 4 weeks into this new job and have been working nearly everyday, 6-8 hour shifts a day. It's tiring but it's a great job so it really doesn't bother me. Tomorrow is my first day off work in a good 10 days so I'm going to relax/indulge in some goodies tonight.

I just snorted 40mg of oxy to the face and popped 150mg Benadryl about 30 minutes ago. The oxy has already settled in nicely, and I've got another 30mg lined up and ready to go. I'll probably do that after I finish posting this. Oh and I've got a couple dabs of some tasty BHO made from a strain called Berry White. I like it a lot.

Well I'm going to go shove that other 30mg up my nose now, probably take a dab, and melt into the fucking couch for a good few hours. =D

Peace my friends, I hope all of you are doing well. %)
 
10 grams Kratom. 2 -3mg etizolam. Nickel size medicinal MARIJUANA CANNABIS oil THC 93%:) and 200mg diphenhydramine.
 
belligerent drunk - you're eating BEARS! Oh my!?

I'm not high... well, not anymore. I did almost a half g of some raw today, but did my last shot about 5 hours ago. Sad times. I'm out of shit now. Picked up some clean rigs, though so I'm set for whenever!

Just took a couple clonidine and will either take a trazadone or some seroquel to sleep. What a lame evening. That said, I just wanna sleep and sleep LONG because I am dreading waking up tomorrow with no shot and no money. Fuck that.
 
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belligerent drunk - you're eating BEARS! Oh my!?

I'm not high... well, not anymore. I did almost a half g of some raw today, but did my last shot about 5 hours ago. Sad times. I'm out of shit now. Picked up some clean rigs, though so I'm set for whenever!

Just took a couple clonidine and will either take a trazadone or some seroquel to sleep. What a lame evening. That said, I just wanna sleep and sleep LONG because I am dreading waking up tomorrow with no shot and no money. Fuck that.
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Did you ever try Kratom? For when you're out?
 
Ate 2 tabs of L yesterday at 1:30pm (4:45am now)... didn't make it want to give up oxy as hoped... have taken lots of extra today now lol... and still feel like shit... fuck my life, what's the fucking point
 
Felonious Monk said:
Ate 2 tabs of L yesterday at 1:30pm (4:45am now)... didn't make it want to give up oxy as hoped... have taken lots of extra today now lol... and still feel like shit... fuck my life, what's the fucking point
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Have you thought about trying Ayahuasca or Ibogaine? I have seen both help people leave very heavy and nasty addictions behind.
 
That's unfortunate to hear, Felonious Monk. Perhaps you're not ready yet. I would like to try ibogaine to try change my ways of taking substances, but alas... where do I find some? (in before accused of sourcing questions)

OT: just got home, about to take codeine. Been constantly withdrawing for like a week now, leg muscles good as dead.

E: codeines have been consumed. O-DT arriving any day now, fuck yah!
 
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Had a good little walk down the ave to the clinic today. Had to meet with the doctor and answer the same intake drug/psych history questions I've answered legit 15 times already in the past few days

40mg methadone
Few cups of coffee
 
Felonious Monk said:
Ate 2 tabs of L yesterday at 1:30pm (4:45am now)... didn't make it want to give up oxy as hoped... have taken lots of extra today now lol... and still feel like shit... fuck my life, what's the fucking point
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I believe psilocybin is way better than LSD for kicking habits and overcoming emotional barriers.

OT: just smoking some bud
 
That doesn't sound like you monk. Go easy on yourself OK.

I am smoking weed, which I shouldn't really be doing right now. Oh well. I'll get back on the horse in a few hours.
 
Just about 10 grams Maeng Da kratom.

The only drug I did yesterday was 5 mg diazepam. You know life is bad when drugs don't even excite or interest you anymore. If you were to look up the word "malaise" in the dictionary, it'd say "see also: Burnt Offering's life"

Also, FM, for what it's worth I've always liked your posts on this website. Psychedelics are no panacea for drug abuse (I'm living proof of that) but they definitely can help. I'm not sure if you're going through a particularly bad time in your life or not, but if you are, hang in there buddy.
 
Thanks for the kind words, I was feeling kinda dark on the comedown yesterday but I'm feeling a little better today. I was hoping that my trip yesterday would help me with some realization that I was ready to give up the crutch of oxy (basically my evening drink at this point), but it more convinced me that I deserve it more than the opposite. It's honestly even difficult to call it "drug abuse" since I'm not even sure I'm physically dependent and this point and I've only been taking 10mg a day lately. My anxiety related to it is that I do it (and I did internalize a little bit of drug ed apparently) and that right now I don't have a Doctor scripting me so I don't want to feel dependent (but I do have an appointment coming up).

I feel good about my trip, I was having useful insights about the new place I just moved into and my life in general early in the trip, but then later on I was just feeling really negative and stagnant. Mostly money related I guess, like I don't have a career/life/plan, but I think that's just being under 30 in the world today--I mean with climate change and concentration of wealth it'll probably be an apocalypse past 2035 anyway, but that's what I have trouble getting comfortable with I guess...

I've considered ayahuasca too because I do feel stagnant in life at times and feel like I'm missing something, I even had somebody local recommended, I just haven't felt the impetus to call yet, I guess some apprehension.
 
Felonious Monk said:
Thanks for the kind words, I was feeling kinda dark on the comedown yesterday but I'm feeling a little better today. I was hoping that my trip yesterday would help me with some realization that I was ready to give up the crutch of oxy (basically my evening drink at this point), but it more convinced me that I deserve it more than the opposite. It's honestly even difficult to call it "drug abuse" since I'm not even sure I'm physically dependent and this point and I've only been taking 10mg a day lately. My anxiety related to it is that I do it (and I did internalize a little bit of drug ed apparently) and that right now I don't have a Doctor scripting me so I don't want to feel dependent (but I do have an appointment coming up).

I feel good about my trip, I was having useful insights about the new place I just moved into and my life in general early in the trip, but then later on I was just feeling really negative and stagnant. Mostly money related I guess, like I don't have a career/life/plan, but I think that's just being under 30 in the world today--I mean with climate change and concentration of wealth it'll probably be an apocalypse past 2035 anyway, but that's what I have trouble getting comfortable with I guess...

I've considered ayahuasca too because I do feel stagnant in life at times and feel like I'm missing something, I even had somebody local recommended, I just haven't felt the impetus to call yet, I guess some apprehension.
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Aya has a habit of revealing things suppressed that are causing you damage, bringing them to the fore and allowing you to deal with them in an enhanced state of mind. It is not always a pleasant experience but i find its always been worthwhile doing the "work".
I would definitely consider it brother.
 
By "revealing things suppressed", do you mean that it makes you think about things that you are conscious of on some level, but just try and actively not think about it because it causes pain, or do you mean it reveals things straight out of your subconscious that you've never even thought of? The second possibility seem pretty interesting to me.

Of course I've done psychedelic drugs, mostly acid. Lots of acid. A decent amount of psilocybin mushrooms and some mescaline too, and a variety of RCs, so I'm somewhat familiar with their effects. I've never taken ayahuasca or ibogaine, though, and those are the two that seem to be associated the most with breaking problematic patterns of substance use.
 
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