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How High Are You? V. Dude Where's My Bar?

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Normal routine
10mg valium
1mg alzam
Few bong hits.
Nothing special
Had another 1mg the day around 12ish pm and slept till now then had the great urge for H and booze and went on to get myself onlt on3 bag H and 500ml vodka. That is all im allowing myself as i have stayed of them for quite awhile especially the H. So in a way its a relapse but still controlled. Total tally:

10mg valium
2mg xanax
5 hits H
200ml vodka

Just for tonight and tomorrow its benzos onlt again and a 2mg sub if needed.
Hate th3se weak times
 
1 x cheese burger with bacon
2 x beers
Gave my pipe a beauty treatment today, added some pretty crystals to her and saw her shine. ( wasn’t much and there’s still some in there) was to busy for cracktivities today.
1 x cigarette

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Whenever I'm addicted to strong Opioids like Morphine/Heroin/Fent and Etc i always become extremely irritable at times. When i just had my rush and im enjoying the Nod god forbid someone disturbs me asks me to go do some shit. I turn into the most lazy motherfucker, Weed doesnt do that to me at all.

With the Buprenorphine i don't really have this issue because of its stimulating nature and it effected my Mood a bit when i started it but ive been able to grapple it. With Heroin that never happened, i would always be in Bliss or on edge.

Exactly mate, but because you're high you don't give a shit. Then after quitting you realise you've just been insulting your friends and family the whole time.

And yeah weed just doesn't do that, it just keeps you in a nice chill mood.

And of course just as I make this post I get sent over 50x oxy 80's. Got a mate to watch out on my use so I stick to weekends on this shit.
 
Exactly mate, but because you're high you don't give a shit. Then after quitting you realise you've just been insulting your friends and family the whole time.

And yeah weed just doesn't do that, it just keeps you in a nice chill mood.

And of course just as I make this post I get sent over 50x oxy 80's. Got a mate to watch out on my use so I stick to weekends on this shit.
I wish strength to you. You can stick to the weekends if even the most retardet junkie like me can make compromises with usage.
 
I wish strength to you. You can stick to the weekends if even the most retardet junkie like me can make compromises with usage.

Thanks for the words of support man. At the very least I'm gonna make sure I don't fall back into a pattern of daily use. Luckily I think life will force this on me anyway: I am soon to be starting a proper job where I need to focus, concentrate, and actually work hard. Can't do that on the nod. So I'll be leaning more on stims than opiates once I start. Then at the weekends I'll feel like having some oxy to chill out. So hopefully if all goes well my lifestyle will basically go perfectly with weekend only opiate use.
 
Your quality of life will also increase with the change. Start will be hard, but not too hard.

Oh for sure. I genuinely think this new job will be a huge boost for my mental health for many reasons, not least because I believe my most recent episode was largely situational depression from my current shit job. Knowing I'll soon be in a better one makes me so happy. And in turn a life that makes me happy means I don't need to rely on drugs for happiness in the first place. Then I can just use drugs for a bit of fun not as a crutch. Much healthier and in the long-term means I'll actually enjoy the drugs too instead of just building up a tolerance super quick.
 
Well its friday. I took 10mg valiym plus 1mg alzam when i woke and then waited 1pm to get a bag of H and 500ml vodka

Looks like its gonna be an earlg day. Ooze and H will be finishex by 5ish and then i will just drop a few benzos to get me through the night then do morning chores and so on and drop a few more benzos to sleep till about 3-5ish and have a sub.

Plans for the day

Plus lost of weed in between
 
Oh for sure. I genuinely think this new job will be a huge boost for my mental health for many reasons, not least because I believe my most recent episode was largely situational depression from my current shit job. Knowing I'll soon be in a better one makes me so happy. And in turn a life that makes me happy means I don't need to rely on drugs for happiness in the first place. Then I can just use drugs for a bit of fun not as a crutch. Much healthier and in the long-term means I'll actually enjoy the drugs too instead of just building up a tolerance super quick.
This is super true. If you literally do nothing then even the drugs dont "work" in my opinion.
 
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