Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
Ehh I don't think so. Opiate withdrawal and cannabinoid withdrawal I feel. I'm pretty numb to the minutiae I put myself through these days. It probably just shatter withdrawal. I'm trying to "cut back on shatter too". What a genius I am. I'm a very stable genius and I know so many words (LOL my favorite Trump-isms). Only one dab so far today and I know, I know, "I should probably cut back on one thing at a time, not everything at once".^^ TAKE A XANAX. You could seizure you know. That sounds like withdrawals to me.
If anything I'm going to drink coffee and do stuff because I can't stand feeling so useless and depressed.
I think I do this cutting down on everything now because I'm just so despondent and shit I just don't care to use. I could easily be trying (and succeeding) at getting other stuff I just don't care anymore. About two to one and a half months ago I freaked out over something small compared to what I'm going through now and I was very suicidal from how bad I handled it. My friend told me just to relapse on heroin or do a bunch of acid. Nothing like that appeals to me anymore. I probably should have talked to a grief counselor but I don't care.
Here's to grinding some coffee beans

Benzodiazepine withdrawal is characterized by sleep disturbance, irritability, increased tension and anxiety, panic attacks, hand tremor, shaking, sweating, difficulty with concentration, confusion and cognitive difficulty, memory problems, dry retching and nausea, weight loss, palpitations, headache, muscular pain and stiffness, a host of perceptual changes, hallucinations, seizures, psychosis, and increased risk of suicide
The only thing I'm having here is the whole body/voice not-still feeling (HIGH NE not withdrawal) and increased risk of suicide (my mental health is in the shitter; not withdrawal). I'm ok. I had panic attacks and anxiety this bad from real life, ptsd, etc and this is not from withdrawal.
I can gauge things like withdrawal pretty well. I actually feel a lot worse if I just have one night of a few beers than I do if I go on xanax for like 3 weeks and abruptly stop. Kind of weird and I kind of see how my buddy fell into an alcoholism pit; I can only imagine how bad one would feel from drinking for years and trying to stop.