I've been trying to buckle down a little bit and make sure I don't wyle out cause I've had a few recently.... So i literally catalogued my use by the minute
I do that essentially every time I take a drug. I think it's a really beneficial habit to build and would recommend it to anyone, even though I know many people will consider it kind of neurotic, which probably it is, or that they just don't need to. But IMO it's the best way to build the mental habit of being properly mindful of what you're taking, in what quantities, at all times. If I'm alone, I'll do it live, as meticulously as possible, using an app on my phone... obviously mid session sometimes I'll get caught up and forget to note a dose, so timestamps aren't always 100% accurate, but I almost always know how much I started with, exactly how much I weighed out, etc, so can track back and fill in the blanks as soon as I remember.
Even socially or out in the world with substances in formulations of varying quantity and purity (ie, alcohol, case in point) I usually have a pretty good idea and can track back and record how many drinks I've had, lines I've done, estimated mg quantities, and whatnot. Even times I've blacked out from alcohol I would bet I can still recall how many drinks I've had, and of what kind, to an accuracy +/-1 drink almost every time - because every act of buying a drink, cutting a line, dropping a pill, smoking a cigarette, or whatever, is a memorable event in itself - it never happens that everything just "blurs together".
Otherwise, how will you really know? It's easy to forget doses here and there, and some substances are especially bad at inducing forgetfulness - ie, benzos. IMO, people routinely underestimate their usage, or just don't bother to estimate at all and end up getting caught up in problematic patterns of usage because of this. I am not immune to unintended overuse, obviously - but I'm always aware of it. It's like with food - anyone who hasn't made a deliberate effort to track their caloric intake and the exact types of foods they eat, for an extended period (which I also do, unsurprisingly), who claims to have any real idea about the macronutrient balance of their diet, or how many calories they're getting daily - in reality, they most likely they do not. Human memory is notoriously fallible and we notoriously overestimate the accuracy of our own. So yeah - great habit to get into and will help anyone become a more responsible drug user. Everyone should try it, at least for a time.
Anyway, OT - today, just 3.65g kratom so far, at 12:15 PM.
