I usually only give what ive taken the whole day as my dose like every hour which is 335 mgs of oxycodone, 100 mgs codeine, 2 mg loprazolam, 2 mg alprazolam, 1200 mg meprobamate, 50 mgs diphenhydrmine, 50 mg cycliczine. Feel like everythings okay! Feels good man (with a tinge of sadness dampening it slightly - no matter how high I get) - but atleast I know I know I couldn't be doing anymore - from the feedback i've received thus far.
hey man, i know you got A LOT of heavy shit on your mind lately
but over the last 3 weeks to a month i have seen your posts go from <100mg of Oxy to 335mg of Oxy plus codiene + benzos n all that other shit you mixed in
try n take it easy man, i mean im not tryin to talk down n if my mom was in the same boat (she sorta is she was diagnosed with cancer a few months back but it wasnt terminal and is in remision now tho she is goin thru alot of bad side effects from the radiation and i remember when she told me she had cancer i thought to myself id prob off myself with opiates n benzos if she did die) but think about what she would want from you, i wouldnt wanna lose my mom either but you know she would like to see you do well n live well man, i dunno what to say
i just wanna say be careful and take it easy man, its your MOM, you will NEVER be able to numb/dull yourself to forget about her plight completely. again man i dunno im not sure if im outta line talkin to you like this im just genuinely concerned, be easy man. spend as much time as you can with her even if it is hard for you to see her in that situation
sends good vibes your way
be easy bro
me im not high at all, after takin all that valium n klonopin @ like 5 or 6 am i was pretty sedated all day, ended up nappin from like 6-9 so i prob wont get any sleep tonight, got a script for trazadone waiting for me up at the pharmacy i just dont feel like goin n pickin it up right now, pretty sure they're 24hours so if i decide i dont wanna take anymore benzos later ill prob make the trip n go get em, had trazadone before n i remember it being fairly effective so we'll see how it goes
so right now just cigs n caffeine (Sweet tea, what can i say its the south) wouldnt mind a little more of that blow from last night but i think a few of us from work might be getting together tommorrow to get down so ill pass for the night