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How fucked you think my brain is?..

Alprazolam8129

Alprazolam8129

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Ok, well i haven't really started a thread on here for awhile but i have a little story to tell and a couple questions.

Well, i went on a 3 week ecstasy binge.. yea it was fun but bad all at the same time.
I went through about 600$ on pills ;Crazy right? yea i was buying pills for friends pills for myself, i was out of control taking 5-6 in one night..for three weeks straight! Anyway, my main concern is my last night rolling.

It was a wendsday night and i was going out with some friends, I had already taken my dose of ecstasy before i went to chill with them(around 5-6 pills throughout the day). Then when i got with them i smoked about two blunt's and anyone who's rolled and smoked bud together knows what i mean when i say i was fucked up!.. Rolling face and high as a kite, i felt amazing; just more reason to keep doing ecstasy. But then i had this thought i needed to be more fucked up, and this is what scares me. my friends all high as shit agree with me that we need to go to wall-mart but they were all asking me for what? When we finally got in there i told them we need to go to the pharmacy section. So we got there and i looked into DXM pills and Sleeping pills.. i decided to get a bottle of Unisom The exact sleep gels like the one in the picture.

I took eight of them! i started out with 6 and moved on to two more with my boy jerry that i snuck into my house?(don't quite remember that) but he said i was talking to my self, i remember seeing the grudge in my window behind jerry, i remember being half awake and like in a dream at the same time; and i was dreaming of my ex-girlfriend, saying shit like i love you and come back something to that matter.. Jerry also told me i was throwing shit around i sat and broke my laptop screen a lil ;also spilled beer all over the right side of it too but it's still workin. And this is where i stopped remembering everything; it was around 4:30am and jerry said he's walking home cause he's to fucked up(on the other hand i was rolling face, high, drunk, and on the same shit pills as him )and he wanted me to come with.. but i said no problem dude, and said lemme get my shoes on thats the last of everything i remember.

[Word's From jerry]
He was soo fucked up, i said mason com'on i need to leave for some reason now! and he said lemme get my shoes on while i waited i was looking at him and how out of it he was he couldent even look at me straight; he was putting on his shoe's backwards, actually two different ones on back wards and then i just ran out the door for some odd reason without mason(probably to get home for something).

Now to tell you i don't remember any of that but here's a weird thing that happened that same night, i passed out with jeans on and wok up with pajama pants on and a huge gash in my head.. Blood was everywhere especially all over my pillow.

Its been about two weeks since this happened; and im still kind of sketchy on the damages it did to my body?

Everyday i wake up feeling fucked up but it's never a bad thing.
Kinda like a very very mild constant roll?
I have eye wiggles, and a sense that everything is allot further than it is, which is a very bad thing.
I actually get random shocks that will shock my whole body and make me twitch for a second.
I was hearing voices, and music in my head 3 days after this experience but for the most part i think it stopped; I actually think im hearing something right now but that could also be my cat? anyway i just wana know how bad do you think i fucked my brain up?
Oh yea, and to top it all off i also went through a 1 week xanax binge right after the ecstasy binge
great right?..


Well tell me what ya'll think
Thanks for reading down this far if you did(:
 
ecstasy fucked me up so bad, I was on a 2 week binge, I would start crying for no reason when I stopped them, bust after fucking my girl for 30 sec, had to get on Prozac to get my Serotonin levels back to normal, AFter a month on Prozac I was back to fucking like a beast

imo stay away from E
 
yea when i finally got off of them it took 2 weeks to get over the depression from xtc..

But idk, of my connect would answer his phone i would deff. do it one more time, just for the hell of it
 
you were soundin pretty cool until u came up with the idea of mixing ecstacy with otc cough medicine
 
Man, at some point that shit will lose its magic. I wouldn't recommend ever doing it again; judging by the after-effects you experienced (not to mention the incredibly risky behavior on the night of the incident) there may be some significant, possibly long-lasting effects.

It's just really not worth it, especially after a 3-week binge. That's more than most people roll in a life time...
 
Yeah I have nothing to ass except that your actions were extremely careless and reckless. You could have well indeed done long term, permanent damage to your brain, by rolling that often and at those doses. Your brain needs to recover from rolling, hence why it's recommended to do only once every few months. You need to take an extremely long break from it. And I have rolled many times, and taking OTC sleep meds has never been a good idea, nor has it ever crossed my mind.

If you are going to use, you need to be responsible about it.
 
You majorly overdid it. Majorly overdid it...

I think you'll be suffering some of these aftereffects for quite a few months, but we're not professionals and can't tell you anything for certain :\
The only thing we can tell you for certain is that you were a bit silly and that you should look out for yourself and your friends more if you plan on getting in a similar situation again.
But just a word of advice:
i passed out with jeans on and wok up with pajama pants on and a huge gash in my head.. Blood was everywhere especially all over my pillow.
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I'd leave this bit out.
 
It actually started out amazing (1 pill) then i had to keep upping my dose from 1-2 pills then 3-5 pills in a matter of 2 weeks. so i never really did lose the magic cause i was always upping my dose; lucky me..there goes so much money.
 
Try searching (ED would be a good place to start) for MDMA/diphenhydramine combos. It's surprisingly common. The diphen would be more of a concern than the MDMA, in my opinion.

trocious said:
Man, at some point that shit will lose its magic.
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I disagree. After almost 20 years of massive MDMA abuse "the magic" is as strong now as it ever was. Just make sure what you have actually is MDMA rather than whatever other shit you get sold as "Ecstasy" and "the magic" never fades.
 
You're lucky you didn't decide on the dxm! 8o

To me your symptoms sound serotonin related, but who knows, see a doc.

I would say it was def the diphenhydramine that made you flip out at the time; I've known it to make people talk to people who aren't there before, and on much lower doses.

As for long term damage, I think you'll be ok, the brain is plastic and can recover.
 
footscrazy said:
the brain is plastic and can recover.
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It's this mode of thinking that leads to these types of problems.

I wish this was true but it's not. Brain damage can be a very pernamant thing and shouldn't be taken lightly especially when it comes to mixing substances. Look at the people who mixed maois with SSNRIs and ended up with parkinsons permanently.

Having said that the fact he can still use a computer says he ain't too bad.
 
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