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How Fucked Up Do You Like to Get?

I like to get very fucked up or what was the point of doing the drugs in the first place... including alcohol in that one. However, I don't like to black out or not be able to function... yet that doesn't mean my cocktail of drugs at certain times wouldn't make you go wtf... oh man. Yet, I play it safe and only do what I know I can handle. I also have a lot of days where I go light and try to not get "fucked" up.
 
Sometimes functional is good, but other times, like just now, are perfect for gouching full-on.

Can't remember the last time I gouched this hard, ahhhhh...
 
With amphetamines I like to take just enough that I get that slight euphoria and motivational boost.

When I used Cocaine, I liked to do shots that would deafen me.

With heroin, I used to like to do medium size shots where I could still function. Now I like to get sloppy high and nod for hours, drooling all over myself, talking to hallucinations etc.
 
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Opiates - I prefer a more energetic euphoria especially when in public, but I like a good heroin nod every now and then

Benzos - Enough to just chill and take the social anxiety away. Pretty much what they're intended for

Cannabis - Only a few hits to get me a mellow buzz otherwise I get too anxious unless of course benzos are in the mix

Stimulants - Enough for an intense euphoria as long as I have some opiates or benzos for the come down

That's pretty much it for the drugs I use on a regular basis.
 
xstayfadedx said:
I like to get very fucked up or what was the point of doing the drugs in the first place... including alcohol in that one. However, I don't like to black out or not be able to function... yet that doesn't mean my cocktail of drugs at certain times wouldn't make you go wtf... oh man. Yet, I play it safe and only do what I know I can handle. I also have a lot of days where I go light and try to not get "fucked" up.
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You're like this dude I know.. tries to get super fucked up every time..
Takes him about a good 10-15 minutes to get out of my vehicle and 10 feet over to his house..
Makes for a good laugh every now and then.
 
Too fucked up. Usually end up running through my benzos and dope (IV coke/boy), so I wake up sick the next morning with nothing but lope, my gabapentin, and weedz.

I usually nod out at dinner in front of my parents or something stupid like that.
 
hangyourhead said:
I usually nod out at dinner in front of my parents or something stupid like that.
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I did a faceplant right into my dinner in front of my mom and her friend a few weeks ago. She knows I still use oxy/Xanax once or twice a month, but still.
Very embarrassing, lol.
 
I like to get screwed up, but still functional. If I can't drive anymore, and I can't put together a coherent sentence... I'm too fucked up and that's not good. It's all right if I'm in bed or whatever and we're in for the night, then the "nod talking" is fun and it's all right, but if I've still got things to do and errands to run and whatever else... I need to be able to do those things.
 
ohshea said:
I know i once nodded out on my leg and cut circulation to it for a few hours. Went to er in the morning scared it was paralyzed forever. Ended up going to physical therapy for six weeks and using a can for 12 weeks. The skin is still numb. Makes you appreciate your legs a lot more, i really used to take being able bodied for granted.
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That time after you swung by the pad in LA..I woke up in the bathroom on my knees kinda like I was praying but with my head slumped down...I shot waaay to much and my legs were dead for a good half hour/hour. After I came to was when I tried to fix another shot and dropped it in the toilet :D.. Something's are just a sign to take it easy aha
 
I constantly try to test personal drug usage boundaries mentally/psychically, do you?

Not saying it in "it's a good thing" kinda way. I'm not really addicted to any one drug in particular. I have been to trams, maybe still am, and am now to e-cigs. And if I found out I couldn't use benzos/benzo analougs for a week yea I'd be pissed...

So does anyone else have a problem with trying to test drug usage and dosage boundaries too much and irresponsibly?

I wanted to say it's almost like a spoiled middle/upper class white person problem, but it affects poor inner city areas as well, you got 14 year olds making hundreds a night on block. If you have money and access and are already into the scene... why not splurge?

But I'm basically a splurge drug user/addict. I go from one this to the next. I actually think it's a semi rational thing to do, to avoid getting to dependant on any one thing. When I know I'm going to be dependent on something, I just stock up, but only on that one thing.

It's a completely hedonistic and lame and selfish thing to do, even if you really feel like in the back of your head you are in no way flirting with death. Yet in the up to an OD, things can be pretty awesome... and now with these RCs taking over more of the drug market, it's so easy to OD. People to get their .01 mg scale game up. Any BLer with a .1 mg scale, get with the times..

So I'm guilty of this, and often feel guilty about it (friends and family and such); but even though I think I know my limits by now and do more than enough research and testing with everything I do, I know I'm being willingly ignorant to some degree.

So in summary, an example of this would be..

Someone testing the limits on how much H plus benzos they can take before bed without having any kind of problems with depressed breathing, choking on puke, OD, death; just so they can nod hard and make their awake life resemble as much about their dreaming life as possible. That's one example, another on a different end of the spectrum is psychonaughts; whether they do it just for pleasure or not. We are often flirtin with a case of certified toxic brain soup that we don't know the long term effects of (although I'm pretty confident in that arena, as long as u take care of your body and eat/suppliment stack right.



edit:^ fuck i typed that fast and too much of it. think the ecstasy i took earlier was mostly a meth bomb. :|
 
It doesn't matter that you don't let yourself become dependent on one drug. It's that you're dependent on being in a different state of mind. It's just as bad, and has just as many repercussions, if not physical withdrawals.
 
Yes I agree psy997. But it sounds as if he doesn't really care about that as long as he doesn't have to deal with the physical part of being dependent (withdrawals and such). I like to feel good too but I guess I value my body and brain too much to consider pushing the limits with all the RCs that there's not a lot known about any effects that might come later. I mean, to each his own for sure, just not for me.
 
I have done many irresponsible things that could have gotten me killed. I'm trying my best to maintain myself, but sometimes impulse is an addiction of it's own. While being a former heroin and meth addict, I relapsed on both drugs. Although, my dependency isn't as bad as it used to be, my lack of impulse control is horrible. I almost OD'ed on 4 4 mg dilaudids and 4 mg klonopins, along with the fact that I was running a fever of 105F due to cotton fever. I mainly relapsed because I love the thrill of a meth/speedball. Because of it, I am facing medical bills and currently in the process of getting a felony charge for methamphetamine off of my record(could've been charged with dope and meth, but I guess I got lucky). I am trying to be better, but some days, there are triggers, which makes me consume a whole plethora of depressants, stimulants, and opiates. Other than my past heroin and meth addictions, I feel as if I have an impulse addiction and poly drug addiction. Eh, just be careful with what you do. Just looking out to prevent a disaster.
 
Testing my limits with stimulants made my chest hurt. With opiates I became addicted. With alcohol I got arrested. With weed I wasted my money. With benzos I did something but I just don't remember. With nicotine I got dizzy and with caffeine I got heartburn. With kratom or DXM I threw up...violently. With nitrous I swear I fried my brain for a month. With mushrooms I had a bad trip and made several pacts with god...none of which I can or will live up to.

I can't recommend strongly enough to never test your limits like this. And I'm a total hypocrite. Because next time I get some kratom I will ride the border between throwing up violently and enjoying myself. I guess its the natural curiosity that us on bluelight are cursed with an abundance of.
 
ohshea said:
I know i once nodded out on my leg and cut circulation to it for a few hours. Went to er in the morning scared it was paralyzed forever. Ended up going to physical therapy for six weeks and using a can for 12 weeks. The skin is still numb. Makes you appreciate your legs a lot more, i really used to take being able bodied for granted.
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I did the same thing, however, it didn't get to the point where I needed to go to the ER.
Sometimes I wake up in really odd positions & my joints are fuckin' stiff & really hard to move.
Laid in bed for 10 minutes trying to move my leg & just couldn't.. It felt like if I moved it, it would rip off.
 
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