Well I decided that I am going to try my best to describe what I am deeply passionate
about. Trying to describe what you love is quite difficult though. I mean sure you
will read this and try to understand, but unless you feel the same way you will never
quite fully understand what I am trying to describe. Nobody can ever Truly understand
what somebody else loves. Its what makes us ourselves.
Lets start off with, well me. I'm just your American teenager trying to find
his purpose in life just like everybody else. Which I believe takes many years to find
the answer to that question. I go to a small town where everybody knows everybody and
have my whole life. My parents split when I was 7 and it has been pretty rough growing
up. I was never the kid that everybody liked in school,nor do I have many friends. Just
a handful of really close ones. Which I think is more valuable anyway. I tried though,
tried to be like everybody else I don't know why but I did. Went to church, played sports
just tried to fit in so society would accept me. That lasted for about two years. I am
now strong supporter of free thinking and am proudly agnostic, and believe in self expression.
That was the first step in finding my true self. Still I just didn't feel happy. Once summer came around I felt
like I was living the same day over in over. Its just me and my mom at the house, but she
works all day some I'm always by myself. Which has made me do alot of self searching, which
is good but it gets lonely. Very lonely. It got to the point where I started getting
depressed. Like I said I don't really have any friends and nobody ever want to hang
out so I was always home by myself.
I guess what pushed me into E.D.M. was one of my close friends. Hes a Dj and he
inspired me to become one. I buy myself a midi controller and start Djing. I loved
the music. Nothing else compares to it. For a couple of months that was really the extent
of it. Djing a few house partys from time to time and just loving the music. Still felt
like something was missing. One day while surfing infamous YouTube listing to new electro,
I stumbled upon a trailer for Electric Daisy Carnival. I saw the video, and I just
could not believe how happy everybody looked, The love they were feeling. Now some of you
may say that because they're all rolling, well I will get back to that. The video pulled
me out of those dark times and made me realize that there are things in life that are worth
living, so I knew from that point on that I had to experience an event such as that.
So I look for concerts that are coming up in my area and Porter Robinson was coming in a few
weeks. I've heard a few of his songs so I thought it would be good for my first rave.
Good god was I right. When I got there It was like stepping into a whole new
world which I have never experienced before, and yes I was sober, for that one
. It was
incredible. At partys your always trying to fit in, so people will accept you. Not here.
not here. Nobody cared who you were, what you wore, or what you did. You can just feel
the love from everybody. for the few hours of the Rave everybody was doing what they
want, without worrying about what others were thinking because nobody judges you, not
to mention people at raves are the nicest people you will ever meet. I went alone
and met so many amazing people that I will never forget. After my first rave i was hooked.
I just couldn't get enough people will tell you that its as addicting as drugs and
they are defiantly right. Theres no other feeling like having all these people next to you,
feeling the amazing vibes, all in unison. The vibe is euphoric in itself. The reason that
I believe E.D.M. based events are loved by many, myself included, is because everybody
understands it. It doesn't matter where your from or what language you speak everybody can
relate to it, and all be in unison. All my life I have never felt so deeply about something.
Raves have changed my life for the better. I finally found something worth living for.
Now like i said I live in a small town. A very religious,hypocritical, egotistical town.
I get SO much shit for expressing my self. They say the only reason people go to those "things"
are to take a bunch of Ecstasy and other drugs. I mean yeah Drugs are a pretty big party in the
culture, but it is so, so much more than that, and honestly whats so wrong with that? whats so
wrong about somebody wisely ingesting a substance to escape reality. Who wants to always be in
this fucked up society anyway? All the hate, all the stress, all the problems. Whats wrong with
someone escaping for awhile. People are just ignorant and that's the world for ya. Raves have changed
my life for the better and I feel like I've found what I've been searching for, for the past couple of
years. Sorry its so long there is so much more I would like to say but I will leave it at this. Thank you for reading.
about. Trying to describe what you love is quite difficult though. I mean sure you
will read this and try to understand, but unless you feel the same way you will never
quite fully understand what I am trying to describe. Nobody can ever Truly understand
what somebody else loves. Its what makes us ourselves.
Lets start off with, well me. I'm just your American teenager trying to find
his purpose in life just like everybody else. Which I believe takes many years to find
the answer to that question. I go to a small town where everybody knows everybody and
have my whole life. My parents split when I was 7 and it has been pretty rough growing
up. I was never the kid that everybody liked in school,nor do I have many friends. Just
a handful of really close ones. Which I think is more valuable anyway. I tried though,
tried to be like everybody else I don't know why but I did. Went to church, played sports
just tried to fit in so society would accept me. That lasted for about two years. I am
now strong supporter of free thinking and am proudly agnostic, and believe in self expression.
That was the first step in finding my true self. Still I just didn't feel happy. Once summer came around I felt
like I was living the same day over in over. Its just me and my mom at the house, but she
works all day some I'm always by myself. Which has made me do alot of self searching, which
is good but it gets lonely. Very lonely. It got to the point where I started getting
depressed. Like I said I don't really have any friends and nobody ever want to hang
out so I was always home by myself.
I guess what pushed me into E.D.M. was one of my close friends. Hes a Dj and he
inspired me to become one. I buy myself a midi controller and start Djing. I loved
the music. Nothing else compares to it. For a couple of months that was really the extent
of it. Djing a few house partys from time to time and just loving the music. Still felt
like something was missing. One day while surfing infamous YouTube listing to new electro,
I stumbled upon a trailer for Electric Daisy Carnival. I saw the video, and I just
could not believe how happy everybody looked, The love they were feeling. Now some of you
may say that because they're all rolling, well I will get back to that. The video pulled
me out of those dark times and made me realize that there are things in life that are worth
living, so I knew from that point on that I had to experience an event such as that.
So I look for concerts that are coming up in my area and Porter Robinson was coming in a few
weeks. I've heard a few of his songs so I thought it would be good for my first rave.
Good god was I right. When I got there It was like stepping into a whole new
world which I have never experienced before, and yes I was sober, for that one
. It was incredible. At partys your always trying to fit in, so people will accept you. Not here.
not here. Nobody cared who you were, what you wore, or what you did. You can just feel
the love from everybody. for the few hours of the Rave everybody was doing what they
want, without worrying about what others were thinking because nobody judges you, not
to mention people at raves are the nicest people you will ever meet. I went alone
and met so many amazing people that I will never forget. After my first rave i was hooked.
I just couldn't get enough people will tell you that its as addicting as drugs and
they are defiantly right. Theres no other feeling like having all these people next to you,
feeling the amazing vibes, all in unison. The vibe is euphoric in itself. The reason that
I believe E.D.M. based events are loved by many, myself included, is because everybody
understands it. It doesn't matter where your from or what language you speak everybody can
relate to it, and all be in unison. All my life I have never felt so deeply about something.
Raves have changed my life for the better. I finally found something worth living for.
Now like i said I live in a small town. A very religious,hypocritical, egotistical town.
I get SO much shit for expressing my self. They say the only reason people go to those "things"
are to take a bunch of Ecstasy and other drugs. I mean yeah Drugs are a pretty big party in the
culture, but it is so, so much more than that, and honestly whats so wrong with that? whats so
wrong about somebody wisely ingesting a substance to escape reality. Who wants to always be in
this fucked up society anyway? All the hate, all the stress, all the problems. Whats wrong with
someone escaping for awhile. People are just ignorant and that's the world for ya. Raves have changed
my life for the better and I feel like I've found what I've been searching for, for the past couple of
years. Sorry its so long there is so much more I would like to say but I will leave it at this. Thank you for reading.
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