thizzin' since 98
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I desperately need someone to explain how Piperazine effects the brain, what damage it does, and how I can recover from it.
Should I focus on Serotonin or Dopamine? I'm on Celexa, and it helps somewhat with mood but things feel fake and off most of the time, so i'm debating switching to Welbutrin, since it works on Dopamine.
I'm going on 4 months of pretty much devastating my life. Nothing has ever been the same since taking a pill with suspected Piperazine.
I am plagued with anxiety, this awful light feeling, brain spasms/shivers, a loss of interest in most if not all things, it feels like im doing things, just to do them. (eating just to eat, talking just to talk, driving just to drive.)
From the minute I wake up, to the minute I go to bed, everything around me just feels so strange. I can feel that something in my noggin is missing. But it's unexplainable at times.
I noticed I analyze things far to much, and think about very strange things, that normal people shouldn't ever think of, things that should be going in the subconscious mind. (For example; most of my thoughts feel like they are coming from the third person, like i'm constantly looking at the situation im in from the outside, or thinking to myself, why is something made this way, why does this operate that way, what is this person thinking right now, why did that person chose to wear what they did today, just little strange, almost pyschotic thoughts)
Overall, I can't shake this light feeling and brain shivers which are very bothersome. I'm very stressed. No doctors are helping me. Everyday, I just wish something would happen to me already to end this painful life. And I can't seem to find my old brain, the one that would just go with the flow and didn't have all these strange, psychoanalyzing thoughts.
I'm only 18 years old, I shouldn't have to deal with this type of anguish for another 70 years.
Please offer anything you can. Is it even from the Piperazine and MDMA? or did I just somehow trigger some underlying bullshit?
Should I focus on Serotonin or Dopamine? I'm on Celexa, and it helps somewhat with mood but things feel fake and off most of the time, so i'm debating switching to Welbutrin, since it works on Dopamine.
I'm going on 4 months of pretty much devastating my life. Nothing has ever been the same since taking a pill with suspected Piperazine.
I am plagued with anxiety, this awful light feeling, brain spasms/shivers, a loss of interest in most if not all things, it feels like im doing things, just to do them. (eating just to eat, talking just to talk, driving just to drive.)
From the minute I wake up, to the minute I go to bed, everything around me just feels so strange. I can feel that something in my noggin is missing. But it's unexplainable at times.
I noticed I analyze things far to much, and think about very strange things, that normal people shouldn't ever think of, things that should be going in the subconscious mind. (For example; most of my thoughts feel like they are coming from the third person, like i'm constantly looking at the situation im in from the outside, or thinking to myself, why is something made this way, why does this operate that way, what is this person thinking right now, why did that person chose to wear what they did today, just little strange, almost pyschotic thoughts)
Overall, I can't shake this light feeling and brain shivers which are very bothersome. I'm very stressed. No doctors are helping me. Everyday, I just wish something would happen to me already to end this painful life. And I can't seem to find my old brain, the one that would just go with the flow and didn't have all these strange, psychoanalyzing thoughts.
I'm only 18 years old, I shouldn't have to deal with this type of anguish for another 70 years.
Please offer anything you can. Is it even from the Piperazine and MDMA? or did I just somehow trigger some underlying bullshit?
