My pharms, music, and my nephew. Even though he's only 6, he's helped me tremendously by just existing. I don't want to do something final and stupid (which crosses my mind frequentlt) that would devastate him. I look at him and see how happy he is even though he has a tough life because of his parents. He may not see that he does indeed have it hard right now, but he's the happiest little boy I've ever met.