I am 45 years old and a very successful business man. I have a wife and kids that love me, and many passions besides drugs. I sometime struggle with the relationship I have developed over the years with drugs in general. I have been using mainly psychedelic on and off (sometimes long multiyear breaks) since I was 15. I attribute many of my better traits to things I have learned, discovered, experienced about myself from these drugs. At the same time I have taken psychedelics too far, and too often and had to deal with lingering consequences. I have also experienced full addiction to a few other substances, nicotine, ketamine, cocaine, and prescription opiates, and successfully kicked them all without major detriment to my life.
In a way that would likely be considered twisted from a general society standpoint, I am proud of these things. I have never in life found any challenge harder than what I went through kicking my ketamine, cocaine, and opiate addictions (all at different times). My wife wonders why dieting is so easy for me. Eliminating these addictions taught me one very important thing on a very visceral level. Success in life is all about will! Either you want it or you don’t, and if you want it, it is going to be a fight every step of the way. My addictions, or more specifically the fight I had with them, have given me the tools to achieve more success than I previously imagined. Nicotine taught me how to change the habits I have, Cocaine and Opiates taught that discomfort is often in the mind, and finally ketamine, well that taught me that I create my own reality and how unbelievably hellish it can get when you screw around too much.
How do you feel about your drug use, and addictions?
In a way that would likely be considered twisted from a general society standpoint, I am proud of these things. I have never in life found any challenge harder than what I went through kicking my ketamine, cocaine, and opiate addictions (all at different times). My wife wonders why dieting is so easy for me. Eliminating these addictions taught me one very important thing on a very visceral level. Success in life is all about will! Either you want it or you don’t, and if you want it, it is going to be a fight every step of the way. My addictions, or more specifically the fight I had with them, have given me the tools to achieve more success than I previously imagined. Nicotine taught me how to change the habits I have, Cocaine and Opiates taught that discomfort is often in the mind, and finally ketamine, well that taught me that I create my own reality and how unbelievably hellish it can get when you screw around too much.
How do you feel about your drug use, and addictions?