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How do you deal with no drugs?

I wake up and drag myself to my job, where I get paid generously to do what I love.
After work I usually go to the gym, or shoot some hoops, or maybe have a stimulating discussion with some of the leaders in my field.
Then I force myself to eat a good dinner, and make love to my beautiful soulmate.

As sad as that sounds, I find that while life is unfulfilling, the best we can do is go through the motions until we can get our hands on our DOC again.
 
During a dark period of about six months I would steal DXM or kava extracts from stores. Nowadays I just clean around the house, play a video game, or exercise. Normal stuff I typically do! Oh, but I do suffer haha. I get very very uncomfortable without drugs.
 
I stay alone at home. I guess deep inside I'm a f... loner, there are so many things I would never say aloud and not because I'm ashamed, but because I know people won't understand what I am saying. Life around me is either about career (actually most people making careers are gone from the country) or hanging around high on stims/ drunk / come down with clonazepam / occasionally something else. I'm too tired for that, I guess. And why do it all with drugs if you could socialize sober or with something milder? No idea, but there's no stopping that because it's almost everyone around. Get tweaked, go somewhere, run out of gas, so you can't go back, it's so freaking awesome! No, it isn't as a matter of fact. At the end of the day I'm all alone and there's nobody to hug me, and that's all. And the tweakers live happily running one another down. I seem to be too weak, I've always wanted to help people and I can't really feel the real hatred to a person who never hurt me.

I deal with it all alone. I'm sick of girls needing just a line and then I'm superfluous. I'm sick of girls calling me when they need to go to the capital of heroin and they need me to drive and/or get a contact. I'm sick of all phones at night from guys who mostly wouldn't ever pick up a phone from me. And so on and on. Thus when the "party" is over, what I do is make sure I've got weed to smoke through the lonely days and 0.5mg clonazepam a day (because I got stupidly addicted to BZDs), and I don't need anything else, so basically if it wasn't for my BZD dependence, smoking weed is the answer - the more psychedelic, the better, I just love drowning in my own sick world, sometimes it feels more real than life, because nobody acts to impress me so she/he gets something from me and nobody makes me feel sad to impress someone else. It's just all pure as I would create the world order from the very beginning. People have no care for feelings, but if they're hurt or unloved, then it's the end of the world.

Allein!
 
Grow progressively and visibly nuttier with impatience counting the seconds thunderously tick by on the clock until that glorious hour arrives, upon which the editor will then overlay the chorus of 'School's Out' by Alice Cooper to me manically running in slow-motion up to the pharmacy counter with cash gripped in clenched fist raised high above my head. Ripping the stapled top of the bag off, a brilliant golden light emits from the contents therein, and I collapse to my knees and weep with profound joy. In slow-motion as well, of course, cause that would kinda hurt otherwise.

. . . :|

Er, uh, what was the question again?
 
To the OP... you're not psychically addicted yet, but you've been turned on.

It takes time to forget and not long for it, unless you find something in your life more pleasurable. Usually love for most people.

But if you're already looking to pawn shit, I'm afraid you've really been bit.


edit: oh, and I work out, it's free endorphins.
 
Run up a tab

Get a bottle of delsym and trip for cheap

Hit up grandmums medicine cabinet, she actually throws out expired narcotics, my mum came home with a bag intended for the trash from grannies that was intended for the trash and it was like Christmas morning for me

Make a few doctors apointments

Go to hospital and tell em I hurt my bad joint and get an xray, there are pieces of bone that are still floating around and never heal so the xrays always look like I have a fresh break

Help people mod, clean, or install new parts on guns, Its so easy but people don't know how to do it

Get a job (rather get sick)

Get a pell grant and scholarships to the point where I get paid to take one easy class at community college

Food stamps

Get dope sick and exercise like its my job once I detox

Whore myself out

If I get sick and know its game over for a while I just get sick and get it over with these days. I used to do all that shit and worse, but I just dont got it in me. Don't be a fucking feind and waste your life man. Do the drug, don't let the drug do you. Or use the drug, don't let the drug use you.
 
you can't always get what you want.....

What do you do when you are unable to getchyo hands on your DOC? I know for me....I drink. Hence my...drunken....post. But no, really. Do you just take some benzos and sleep? Drink? Eat? Never run out? Lemme know. Cuz....I'm SOL for about a week. Idea, please.
 
I typically drink G&T's and smoke cigarettes. And I'm usually fine with that. Once I get drunk I don't crave heroin. I DO however, crave cocaine. Wen I crave coke or meth however, I'll smoke pot and the craving's gone.
 
I'll eat a bottle of Loperamide every 2 days w/tonic water and Prilosec,1st day gets be buzzed,2nd day just keeps w/d away. Or dip into other peoples stuff(muscle relaxers,benzos's,pain pills they never take..not proud of this) Or if I'm desperate then drink,use to love drinking but something happened,don't know what. Oh, or get kratom..but shit's nasty and requires to much redosing and sometimes makes me feel anxious. Drugs of choice:Oxycodone,Hydrocodone,Hydromorphone(when I can get it) and Morphine(via pills or pods,have yet to try seed tea).
 
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