Ya you gotta find the source of your depression. Whether it's trauma u experienced , you have a shitty family , whatever it is, you have to figure it out and go through a healing process.
Man I wish I could just smoke some weed and feel ok. I need like ... hard drugs .
A lot of people are depressed and turn to drugs and ruin there lives and their kids lives and in the end after they hit rock bottom they are still alive , and they have to deal with MORE depression as a side effect from the drug use and they STILL have to deal with their problems.
I'm happy for you that you can smoke weed and feel ok. This is coming from a x heroine addict and current alcoholic who's been sober 6 days. ( I go on binges )
I just went through a Benzo withdrawal too.
I'm sorry you feel this way. it does majorly suck having to live with depression.
I'm working on finding out who I really am.
I've been trying to fill myself with positive things. And raise my overall vibration.
I don't believe in psych meds , I DO believe in psychedelics

If you really want to heal yourself , I believe you CAN do it.
I didn't ask myself WHY I felt the way I did until AFTER I went through years of drug abuse .
Tell the universe you are ready for healing . Make that your reality and set your path .
The possibilities are endless