How do i keep my self from buying another bag... (Meth)

[pyshcocentric]

i am thinking about closing this and opening a new one about how i feel so "consciously oblivious" bout my meth amphetamine use. - i know its horrible and the effects are horrible but yet its happening and the use seriously seem subconscious actions! WTF!

- i am still using though it is less (from +/-.6 per day to +/- .2 per day) still daily, and i know what some of you will say that im not ready or im letting the drug win... well you are allowed you own opinion, but i disagree. I have kicked addictions before but none of the drugs i have used had such phycological effects.


should i start a new separate thread or continue here with the issue above?

 

[herbavore]

I'm not totally sure I understand what you are saying. Are you saying that

A) You have decreased your use and that you are satisfied with that

B) You have decreased your use but know you need to stop altogether

C) You are happily self medicating and you feel like it is working

Do any of those come close? If you can clarify it for me I can help you figure out whether or not to start a new thread and what forum it should go in. TDS is a support forum for those who are struggling with addiction. That implies at least wanting to quit. If you are not feeling like you are there that's fine, but then the thread should not be in TDS. So.....let me know.

 

[Tarnum]

Definitely try some supplements. Thats my best advice. Tyrosine is a great one. 2 years ago I stopped using opiates for a while, and used tyrosine to get energy and motivation and I actually felt good! It felt even better knowing i wasnt abusing shit! I know opiates arent the same but i never had a habit of any upper, only opiates. But tyrosine should work even better for people who are addicted to uppers!
If you take tyrosine, do 1000mg max in the morning with some b vitamins so it could absorb properly. And its a protein so dont eat anything for a good 30 min. and have an empty stomach, why i said in the morning

 

[pyshcocentric]

I'm not totally sure I understand what you are saying. Are you saying that

A) You have decreased your use and that you are satisfied with that

B) You have decreased your use but know you need to stop altogether

C) You are happily self medicating and you feel like it is working

Do any of those come close? If you can clarify it for me I can help you figure out whether or not to start a new thread and what forum it should go in. TDS is a support forum for those who are struggling with addiction. That implies at least wanting to quit. If you are not feeling like you are there that's fine, but then the thread should not be in TDS. So.....let me know.

B) sorry that i wasn't real clear, my mind has kinda be all over the place recently... but yes i 100% want to stop, my battle with substance abuse has gone on for to long... im just worn out im 23 and feel ALOT older having minor health problems... what the post was suppose to say: drug seems to control its own intake and i have no say in it. and i have delt with pretty much all the main drugs out there (absolutely not proud of that fact) and it was never like this, i think im starting to see what everyone has ment by "its psychologically addicting". i have cut back on the use but i still smoke everyday i fucking hate it.

and i know what some of you will say that im not ready or im letting the drug win... well you are allowed you own opinion, but i disagree.

i just know ppl will just say im to weak minded and im letting it happen... i dont need to be told things that i already know, doesn't help...

SO basically i need some mental strength. but yea its just tottaly psyching me out, dont know what to think...

 

[sighhill]

I feel quite hypocritical here so I've decided to paste my post in a PM to the OP but if the OP wishes to share what I have wrote you have my permission I just ended up finding myself in a "do as I say, not as I do" type of situation but felt like I did have some insight on the matter and my advice could be somewhat of a benefit. I really had to lean towards sporks direction and advice.

I think you need to take your dealer's name out of your phone and avoid friends that might encourage you to buy more meth. I ended up having to go extreme with this and cut out most of friends and moved 3 hours away, but I know personally that that's what had to happen. I still get pretty bad cravings and know that I wouldn't be able to control myself if I was able to get meth so I just avoid it like the plague these days and it works for me.

Also, it seems like you've been self-medicating and just switching off with different substances. If you haven't already, you might want to consider talking to a therapist to get to the root of your problems so you can stop the addiction cycle sooner.

Something that also might help is Octosober. You'll find that other TDSers are trying to stop their DOC right now as well and it can be a huge source of support to have people to talk to that might be going through similar situations. Don't worry that October already started, you can still join in now.

Surround yourself with people that love and support you, reach out, and stay strong and you can get through this.

Support is the number one thing cause addiction is not something you can beat on your own. And it's important to educate yourself on addiction rather than just the d.o.c. although it can be easier to relate to someone that has beat an addiction in the same class but is not always nessisary.