howdoisavenat
Greenlighter
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I recently moved into a friend of a friends run down house that he doesn't live in because he lives with his girlfriend. His ex lives here with me, let's call her nat.
I was told that nat was a bit off but I'm a non judging person so it was ok with me. First day meeting with her was ok, she liked to stay up with her friends and smoke meth. I'm not one to judge on one persons drug of choice and I have witnessed very little of that culture.
The next day went ok, she woke me up to make me waffles. She somehow failed making 90% of waffles made. That's ok but later I experienced a series of moments that let me know what I was dealing with. I walk into her room and she is pulling up a floor panel that accesses our pluming. She asks if I see the animal down there making whimpering sounds but it is only about a foot deep and 3 feet by 2 feet in area with a few pipes and ample light. I say "no" because there is litterally nothing there. She promptly goes to her bed to smoke more Meth and smokes for about 20 minutes mostly unresponsive to conversation but very vigilant and tapping on her wall and looking in every direction.
An hour later we start to try working on the house. Simple tasks like picking up trash and orginizing a room are near impossible for her but I walk her through cleaning her room for a few minutes and then she wanders outside to tinker with a fan.
While she's out I clear out her room of all trash and move furniture into a logical arrangement and even make her bed. Nat comes back in an hour later with a trafic cone and a old weedwacker. Having been in the nursing field for a few years I have come to the conclusion that she has some sort of psychosis or schitsophrania. Talking in a calm and non judgemental way works well with her.
There are few moments of nat being nat which is a happy and beautiful girl with a lot of smiles and good conversation. But those end and it's straight to delusions, hallucinations of all senses, suspicious questioning, and very odd behavior that could be very damaging to herself or the property.
nat "do you hear that? Sounds like someone's burning!". I say "no I don't hear that it's dead quiet out here minus the cars passing by on occasion" she says "no" and goes inside and returns with a sludge hammer which I didn't even think we had one and starts bashing it on the rocks set into our patio.
For about the past 2 weeks I have heard many of the same stories as if she has never told me but I enjoy and listen to each one. I have grown to really adore her and care for her unconditionally.
The problem with this whole situation is that she is using Meth to help with some of her "problems" which aren't problems that exist in the real world but more of just side effects of prolonged use of meth and meth induced psychosis.
She has no job and lives here for free provided that she maintains the property. A mutual friend of ours is nats dealer though. He brings nat decent amounts almost daily that would hold a casual user over for maybe a week. Or at least it would hold me over for a week if I cared to use it. I did use it for one week just to understand its effect better. The first time I smoked it was the only time it had any effect on me. I talked a lot, tried to jerk off for 6 hours with no success and was up for 3 days parinoyed as fuck for no real reason.
After that week I have no interest in smoking it as my roller emcee for it went through the Roof after first use. It literally does nothing for me now, I can sleep on it and function normally right after smoking it and for the rest of the day I just feel pressure in my chest.
Her dealer/our friend Is self medicating to get over a troubled past and it also helps him work days on end. He is fully aware that she is not well and very addicted but likes coming here to escape the real world and see his friends. He also makes sexual comments to her and turns a casual sit and smoke session into him giving nat a massage and saying sexual things while grabbing his penis with his free hand and the three of us are in a 5 foot radius of eachother.
I personally feel that he's taking advantage of a unstable and I'll person who needs to seek help rather than get drugs for free and getting groped by a fully competent adult almost twice her age.
I have tried to cut nat off from him and brought over a female friend for her to spend time with so she might get back on track with life. I have even carefully and calmly explained to her that it's ok to have something weird happen in your head and that it can go away if she wants it to but there are some steps to getting there. She took it well but had no memory of the conversation 5 hours later when she was trying to dig a hole in the wall because her friend was in there. She still has no memory of the conversation and gets very angry at times saying "im not crazy"
I'm still trying to just help her in any way I can and talk about life and weather or not something is real. She's often very defensive about me following her after saying "hey wait, come help me with this. It's a battle with reality with her hundreds of times a day but I am glad to endure it with her every second.
She's so far gone that she doesn't care about getting her son back or getting life on track. But in her nat moments she loves him and wants to see him but her addiction is just so strong it fully takes over.
The worst part is that I will be with friends of Both mine and hers and she will hear crying and run into the room asking "who's crying?" And in a room of 4 grown adults including nat, no one but I will try to help her understand that it's not happening in the real world. They will say "it was the dog, he's just hungry" nat sees through bullshit responses and gets angry with everyone often asks us for our keys and to see our rent agreements. Because she wants us gone.
From what I know, babying them and lying is very bad for them. I often get yelled at by my friends for trying to diagnose her. I'm not but if someone is seeing hundreds of things that aren't real a day, constantly trying to break things or dig into them because someone's in a wall, under the cement on the patio, having severe mood swings, conversations not based in reality or logic and has beyond odd behavior: that isn't the flue.
I'm posting here to tell a story and ask for help/advice. I love her unconditionally and will do anything to help her help herself before this state of insanity is permanent or she dies. So please help me save nat!
I was told that nat was a bit off but I'm a non judging person so it was ok with me. First day meeting with her was ok, she liked to stay up with her friends and smoke meth. I'm not one to judge on one persons drug of choice and I have witnessed very little of that culture.
The next day went ok, she woke me up to make me waffles. She somehow failed making 90% of waffles made. That's ok but later I experienced a series of moments that let me know what I was dealing with. I walk into her room and she is pulling up a floor panel that accesses our pluming. She asks if I see the animal down there making whimpering sounds but it is only about a foot deep and 3 feet by 2 feet in area with a few pipes and ample light. I say "no" because there is litterally nothing there. She promptly goes to her bed to smoke more Meth and smokes for about 20 minutes mostly unresponsive to conversation but very vigilant and tapping on her wall and looking in every direction.
An hour later we start to try working on the house. Simple tasks like picking up trash and orginizing a room are near impossible for her but I walk her through cleaning her room for a few minutes and then she wanders outside to tinker with a fan.
While she's out I clear out her room of all trash and move furniture into a logical arrangement and even make her bed. Nat comes back in an hour later with a trafic cone and a old weedwacker. Having been in the nursing field for a few years I have come to the conclusion that she has some sort of psychosis or schitsophrania. Talking in a calm and non judgemental way works well with her.
There are few moments of nat being nat which is a happy and beautiful girl with a lot of smiles and good conversation. But those end and it's straight to delusions, hallucinations of all senses, suspicious questioning, and very odd behavior that could be very damaging to herself or the property.
nat "do you hear that? Sounds like someone's burning!". I say "no I don't hear that it's dead quiet out here minus the cars passing by on occasion" she says "no" and goes inside and returns with a sludge hammer which I didn't even think we had one and starts bashing it on the rocks set into our patio.
For about the past 2 weeks I have heard many of the same stories as if she has never told me but I enjoy and listen to each one. I have grown to really adore her and care for her unconditionally.
The problem with this whole situation is that she is using Meth to help with some of her "problems" which aren't problems that exist in the real world but more of just side effects of prolonged use of meth and meth induced psychosis.
She has no job and lives here for free provided that she maintains the property. A mutual friend of ours is nats dealer though. He brings nat decent amounts almost daily that would hold a casual user over for maybe a week. Or at least it would hold me over for a week if I cared to use it. I did use it for one week just to understand its effect better. The first time I smoked it was the only time it had any effect on me. I talked a lot, tried to jerk off for 6 hours with no success and was up for 3 days parinoyed as fuck for no real reason.
After that week I have no interest in smoking it as my roller emcee for it went through the Roof after first use. It literally does nothing for me now, I can sleep on it and function normally right after smoking it and for the rest of the day I just feel pressure in my chest.
Her dealer/our friend Is self medicating to get over a troubled past and it also helps him work days on end. He is fully aware that she is not well and very addicted but likes coming here to escape the real world and see his friends. He also makes sexual comments to her and turns a casual sit and smoke session into him giving nat a massage and saying sexual things while grabbing his penis with his free hand and the three of us are in a 5 foot radius of eachother.
I personally feel that he's taking advantage of a unstable and I'll person who needs to seek help rather than get drugs for free and getting groped by a fully competent adult almost twice her age.
I have tried to cut nat off from him and brought over a female friend for her to spend time with so she might get back on track with life. I have even carefully and calmly explained to her that it's ok to have something weird happen in your head and that it can go away if she wants it to but there are some steps to getting there. She took it well but had no memory of the conversation 5 hours later when she was trying to dig a hole in the wall because her friend was in there. She still has no memory of the conversation and gets very angry at times saying "im not crazy"
I'm still trying to just help her in any way I can and talk about life and weather or not something is real. She's often very defensive about me following her after saying "hey wait, come help me with this. It's a battle with reality with her hundreds of times a day but I am glad to endure it with her every second.
She's so far gone that she doesn't care about getting her son back or getting life on track. But in her nat moments she loves him and wants to see him but her addiction is just so strong it fully takes over.
The worst part is that I will be with friends of Both mine and hers and she will hear crying and run into the room asking "who's crying?" And in a room of 4 grown adults including nat, no one but I will try to help her understand that it's not happening in the real world. They will say "it was the dog, he's just hungry" nat sees through bullshit responses and gets angry with everyone often asks us for our keys and to see our rent agreements. Because she wants us gone.
From what I know, babying them and lying is very bad for them. I often get yelled at by my friends for trying to diagnose her. I'm not but if someone is seeing hundreds of things that aren't real a day, constantly trying to break things or dig into them because someone's in a wall, under the cement on the patio, having severe mood swings, conversations not based in reality or logic and has beyond odd behavior: that isn't the flue.
I'm posting here to tell a story and ask for help/advice. I love her unconditionally and will do anything to help her help herself before this state of insanity is permanent or she dies. So please help me save nat!
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