wow I feel the sudden need to take a shower, hearing about all these depressing opiate addictions. ouch.
Anyways, my first DOC was DXM. I was 15.
Actually, the first substance I tried was Dramamine come to think, because of the modest mouse song, not realizing dramamine was far from a legit mind expanding psychadelic. I just wanted to trip sack and it was horrible (little did I know, I thought it was awesome seeing things and people that weren't there). Then a friend told me that if I'm looking into OTC's to get high I should try DXM. One 4 oz. bottle of robo down the hatch and I was FLYING. Things are always the best the first time you use. I was seeing frame by frame, felt like a psychic vampire with euphoria up the wazoo. Even trying H or oxys these days from time to time, nothing has been able to match that level of euphoria that one day. I highly respected DXM, more than weed, and I used it alone in my room at night while listening to good ambient music about once a week on average throughout high school. Then after graduation (and I was smoking a lot of reefer too) I started to binge on DXM with my friends. Granted, I don't regret a minute, we were insane, doing dxm 4 nights in a row sometimes, tripping at parties, on campus, walking around the city til dawn having amazing conversations and perspectives etc. etc.
Now, as a very seasoned and aware drug user, I try to stick to my psychadelics and cannabis. I occasionally touch opiates, alcohol or coke but they're not my thing, I get 1000X more out of a psychadelic session. Feeling good is not what I go into my experience looking for any longer, because I already feel good. I just want to learn a thing or two about myself and the outside world and the infinite world within myself from which all things emerge + I'm not just trying to "get my fix" which is a horrifying experience. I did at a few points in life begin to see myself using the more addictive drugs (painkillers, adderall, cocaine, benzos, alcohol) more frequently than I saw nessicary so I did what I needed to do to not develop a habbit. Since I've been becoming more spiritual these days, I try to refrain from doing things like smoking cigarettes, eating meat and fucking girls that I wouldn't consider dating. I used to be more of a wild child a couple years back. And I'm only 20.
But overall... my DOC is LSD-25. Wish I could find some. NOW
