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How did you get into the more "hardcore" drugs

tbh, since i was young maybe only 10 i was always taken to AA meetings with my mom & it made me more aware of drugs along with giving me an unconscious idea that most people get sober and these people were fun, i felt these people understood me more and were more realistic. i didnt make the connection that….these people arent still using, and they got clean for a reason. i still wanted to avoid hard stuff but id been smoking bud since 13. when when i was 15 i was kicking it with this guy (22) & he brought out some blues n offered em but i said “i dont really mess with pills”. he took that as if id called him a druggie & a bad person or something, because he got mad and told me not to look at him & a bunch of shit. i was thinking its not really a big deal, id just rather not, but i said fine ill take a hit just to make him comfortable. it was coo but i really didnt feel much. then everytime we kicked it i smoked some, realized damn this feels pretty good… so i started buying my own eventually. only every now & then, if i was going out and wanted to have fun n get faded. then i started buying everyday, and after a month i found out about withdrawals. but i liked being high, so why go thru withdrawls right? now 3 years later i regret it. meth, that was also introduced to me by another 25 yr old. only used when i was with him, then stopped for a bit, but decided to buy some to help me thru classes a couple months later & got stuck in that loop for a bit too. but i quit once it started becoming a burden. blues i couldnt stop even when i thought i wanted to. xanax, now that i started slightly after the blues and i really don’t remember why lol. just remember there was a month where i was doing 3-5 hulks a day. they never became an issue for me to stop, i just wanted to keep using em. almost romanticized being a bar head addict smh. but any drug that started causing problems, except blues, i was able to quit. so if anyone reads this, even if u never had a problem before, i promise fentanyl will get u. dont even risk it.
 
Sick and tired of speed, I lived with Rejection from my family and later a lady who ditched me which made me depressed like hell, a lost love, I knew a Marokkan heroïne dealer in my neighborhood, and I thought fuck it, let's go, started chasing the dragon with very strong dope, and 3 months later I was robbing and stealing, it started that easy
 
I believe that for me the "gateway drugs" were prescribed psychopharms. I had a tough time as an adolescence due to bullying in school and my mother being schizo so I got quite a few pharms prescribed before I turned 18. These drugs, and stuff other inpatients told me, made me curious about the "real" drugs of "abuse". It should take until the Deep Web became popular for me to acquire some of the classical drugs but my DOCs should become research chemicals. But so if anybody is to blame then psychiatry in my case.
 
Oldest brother gave me my first taste of everything ive done from Weed to Meth but running out of coke one night led us to try some crystal he did it enjoyed the ride and came down and ended up back on the coke i knew i instantly fell in love when i got my first real good hit off the foil. Been an on and off relationship between me and tina for a few years but she will always be my secret love.
 
I got bored of MDMA and cocaine. Then started smoking crack and IV'ing cokd. Which led to heroin
 
I got into hard drugs once weed stopped "working" for me anymore. That is I started reacting badly to the herb mentally (paranoia, intense anxiety and the whole shebang). I then eventually moved on to speed which made me lose my inhibition to try even harder drugs and finally moved on to cocaine and opioids. Coke never stuck to me (I'm just not an upper type of person) but I became severely addicted to opioids and now, 12 years later, I'm in the maintenance program and am doing well.
 
Boredom. I wanted to try everything, I'm 36 I pretty much have but 2C-E awaits. Benzos got me for a few years. Tens of thousands of doses. Diclazepam (not diazepam) was a miracle cure. I only smoke weed as far as daily usage. Hangovers kept crack, meth, and dope secondary to alcohol. Meth got me the highest but I never messed with injecting I don't even i.m. so K isn't high up on my list unfortunately. Ramble blarblah at least Dougie Doozer didn't jump out from behind another windmill and blow paprika extract into everybody's dang eyeballs again!
 
For me it was my insatiable curiosity but initially I was just smoking weed and that was more then enough for me

Then at 13 I got diagnosed with panic disorder and PTSD etc and they prescribed me 60 clonazepam and 60 lorazepam every month with hella refills

but I didn't enjoy benzos recreationally back then cuz I fell in love with marijuana so I would trade the pills for more weed for like 2 years

after that period at 16 I ended up in Colorado smoking the finest marijuana around but one day I ran out of weed completely andi had a script for 90 1mg klonopins and I had never taken more then 3-4 max for when I panic

So I popped 7mg and fuck me right then and there I fell in love with sedatives and that led to trying all sorta of opioids and benzos and muscle relaxer ect
 
I lived in a duplex with my mom & an older sibling when I was 12-13 & our neighbor was addicted to speed/crank.
And my sibling was a dealer.

So by the time I was 16, I had already done crank/meth, shrooms, xtc, cocaine, smoked weed everyday & drank.




Then when I was 19...
I moved from a different state to another & had no weed connect.

And my mom was prescribed pain pills. So I tried them & noticed my depression was completely obliterated.
I also noticed I was able to work at my job easier. Like all the physical labor was normally annoying as fuck, but when I was high on pain pills I saw it as "damn this is good exercise, let's do more!'... And then I became dependent on them.

And then I spent a couple years fantasizing what heroin would feel like & wanting to try it.
And then I just happened to get extremely lucky in my mid 20's and became friends with some people who did heroin.
And they introduced me to their main dude who gets it & the guy really really liked me for some reason & from that point on, he would show up every other week or month with heroin for me. Always gave me raw, uncut rocks. Rarely had to pay for it. He just trusted me & felt comfortable with me & I think he had a crush on my female best friend. He was a gang banger from Chicago & never thought in a million years that we would have ended up being friends.

But that's basically how I got into meth & heroin. Heroin was more my DOC than meth, even though I did meth off and on for 25 years too.
 
It's weird because the way I was introduced to drugs was totally backwards. I started out using oxy and methylphenidate first and then I moved on to marijuana, shrooms and LSD. Later on in my life my friend introduced me to crack and I was on that stuff for a couple years. But I quit that habit and only use soft drugs now.
 
Got addicted to morphine and lorazepam in the hospital. I was given 10mg IV morphine six times a day and 2.5mg oral Lorazepam 3 x day for 12 weeks in the hospital. Got a continuing Lorazepam script when I was released and got the 60mg IV morphine/day switched to 120mg oral oxycodone a day. I was obviously already physically dependant on both by the time I left the hospital but got properly addicted after and discovered the dark web and started buying Xanax plus my own oxy to supplement what I was prescribed. I also eventually added Zopiclone and Carisoprodol. I eventually became homeless due to the addiction. While I was in a homeless hostel literally EVERYONE there was on wither heroin or coke so I started shooting up heroin (cheaper than the oxy, by a LOT) and occasionally coke because a few of the guys were really into me and would share their coke with me for free (free money-wise, anyway).

So my "gateway" was actually being legitimately prescribed opioids and benzos.
 
Every teenager's pot dealer sells other things eventually. Curiosity got the better of me. I tried meth at 17 because I was bored with pot. Wanted to see what the big deal was. . . If I could go back in time I would have stuck to just pot.

I get what the op pointed out tho. I took got busted smoking a joint and my parents threatened drug tests. So I used anything and everything that didn't stay in my system very long. DXM, vodka, Sudafed, Adderall, meth.

I should had just stuck with pot. Kids are dum what can I say.
 
I think a big part of it was that my body really didn't like cannabis... And everybody was smoking that all the time, so I felt left out.
 
Hm, I've aways liked alcohol, so I already knew I enjoyed the feeling of being 'under the influence'. Had been given codeine as few times as a child for when a really bad cough would keep me from sleeping, and had liked that as well.

When I was thinking about trying something illegal for the first time (17) I just jumped in with both feet at the deep end. I fancied myself a bit of a 'rebel' like all young guys do at that age, and thought to myself "ok which drug would give my respectable relatives the most shock horror reaction if they knew I was doing it?" It was also in my mind a matter of "IF I'm gonna break this taboo AT ALL then I'm not pissing about with a little joint here and a little pill there. If it's worth doing..."
I'm a very much all-or-nothing type person. And one of my mates was conveniently a junkie-boy. So... straight to heroin, and straight to the needle. XD
 
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